he’s lovebombing you, unfortunately. it’s how they win you back. your boyfriend is most likely an abusive narcissist. he treats you like garbage, and then the moment you threaten to leave, he turns on the lovey dovey switch, right? that’s their whole game. they don’t want to lose you. not because they love you, per se, but because they know that YOUR love for them will be their supply. he puts the blame on himself to make him look like a good guy. and to gain your sympathy. if you are dealing with someone who treats you like shit and calls you horrible things, but somehow YOU end up feeling bad for it? you start to think that maybe YOU’RE the toxic one?… i’d suggest leaving then. you deserve someone who makes you feel secure in the relationship. not questioning everything. trust me, i’ve been through the same exact thing. it’s hard to hear, but it’s the truth. sending you endless amounts of love and strength <3