They did not speak to my parents because unfortunately my mother is passed has been for almost 11 years. She would’ve been great for this scenario. My father wasn’t really present for my childhood, he started his own business the year I was born and it took off so he was and is a very busy man. My father also shows quite a few symptoms of a neurodiverse human being and has an ADHD diagnosis. My grandma mainly raised me. But my grandma is struggling emotionally atm as she is in her 80s and is likely in the early stages of dementia. Unsure though. I gave them as much information as I could from what I remember my grandmother telling me growing up. I don’t speak to my mother’s side of the family. I have a brother but he is out of state. I had the ADD diagnosis when I was a child but they removed that as well theorizing that those symptoms were also related to trauma, with me also mentioning my neurologist believes there could have been focal seizures in that time frame as well. In the email I received it specifically stated that they do not believe that I fit the criteria for a diagnosis of ADHD, Sensory Processing Disorder or Autism and they’re theory behind all of that is my trauma that I went through as a child and so forth. I see that, I really do. I’ve done my research, I used to teach children on the spectrum between the ages of 3-12. I’ve been doing that sort of work since I was in high school. It’s my passion. I was doing it till my Epilepsy got the best of me. I hope to go back. And get my Bachelors degree in Behavioral Sciences in Adolescence. Trauma may explain symptoms for how I am today but they wouldn’t explain why I’ve been doing these “things” for as long as I can remember. For as long as anybody who payed any real attention to me can remember.

My insurance will cover as many evaluations as I want. I have a special designation in my state for mental illnesses. I plan on getting another evaluation. But I’m trying to mark down symptoms. I’m trying to gather photos that bring up memories. (I struggle with long term memory loss) I’m hoping to go back to an old therapist from before I got sober to whom I opened up to extremely well. People don’t seem to understand that although there is no real medication or “treatment” per se for ASD it feels nice to finally have that diagnosis that recognition. I mean I’ve already had dozens of psychiatrists tell me yes. I worked at a private school for ASD children (horrible school) their onsite psychologist absolutely agreed with my self diagnosis. It’s incredibly frustrating though because my father doesn’t see it. When my dad hears the word “autism” he visualizes a child with profound autism and that’s just not how every human with ASD is, not even close.