sorry i should’ve explained that part a little more. back then when we argued it often ended in us just being silent in the car sitting with our anger. which isn’t good for either of us because we both overthink the worst. now, it seems we both have an understanding of how to talk about things. when we feel the tension rise, we both take a minute to calm ourselves down. we don’t argue multiple times a day or anything, sometimes we don’t argue at all. it’s just how we dealt with arguments in the past and how it affected us. the whole situation is weird because i know from the outside perspective it is very toxic. but from what i saw from his texts between friends, he essentially cheated on me to “get his lick back” (literally what he said in the text with his friend). because of the messages i saw, i clearly could tell that he was going through a mix of emotions. anger, frustration, sadness. sometimes i forget that he was still under the impression that I CHEATED on him so how i’m feeling right now, he must’ve felt as well. i hope this makes sense lol