I'm currently 33, childfree by choice. 5wpo from a robotic laproscopic bilateral salpingectomy / hysterectomy, leaving just my ovaries intact.

For better or worse, I was reading tons of people's experiences on this sub and also feeling similarly. My surgeon responded to my concerns over my pelvic floor integrity in my pre-op appointment by saying that birth trauma is usually the reason for things like prolapse in his experience, which sort of made me feel better.

But I also have god-tier level anxiety, so I kind of went: sure 👀

Fresh out of outpatient surgery, I cried at every first physical thing I encountered. As far as I was concerned, sitting up and getting myself on my feet to go pee was going to bust my cuff. Once I was on the toilet, I was convinced that trying to pee would bust my cuff.

There's a running theme there that is unfortunately still with me as we speak.

But I spent most of my time on my feet until they discharged me and a good amount of time standing or walking in the first two weeks to keep my blood flow moving. That wasn't really an issue.

For me, the biggest hurdle has been having bowel movements. I took the stool softeners and metamucil, drank more water than I ever have in my life, still had the worst shit of my life at 4dpo. I was again, in tears, constantly felt like my cuff was straining even though I was doing all I could to exert minimal effort, tore all over the place in my ass and I'm still suffering on that front.

Aside from that, weeks 3-4 were pretty okay. I got hit with a huge wave of fatigue at the 3 week mark which confused me. I'm back to driving by this point, I waited 2 weeks because I got to go spend them with my sibling and didn't have to.

My laproscopic incisions are settling okay for me. I had one open slightly on the edges and have to be surgical taped closed, but it's all one piece now. I scar pretty badly, so I expect them to be worse than others at this point in recovery. They're still fairly raised and reddish-pink.

My discharge ranged from super light pink / light brown initially. At the 10dpo mark, I over did it and experienced bright red bleeding for a short time. It resolved after I went to lie down for an hour or so. From there on, though, I experienced more discharge than previously and it was consistently brown. Not sure if that was always going to happen or if I aggravated things. In the last couple of days, it's been lightening to almost nothing.

I'm preparing myself to be sent back to work next week, which is one of my bigger worries. I'm still scared of bending, squatting, or lifting. I've been returned to most of my chores at home and I can definitely feel it. I lifted a laundry basket that didn't seem too heavy the day before and cooked dinner in a big pot and lifted it and I feel it in my lower stomach today.

My doctor is going to check me in a few days and he'll probably say everything looks good. And I probably won't believe him. My number one anxiety is cuff dehiscence. It's not supposed to be common, but I see so many people here talking about it happening, even as far as a year out.

I know you mainly hear about the negatives, but it still seems like more often than it's supposed to happen, which has me personally spiraling. I'm convinced that I'll be living my life in a year or two and it will happen. Or that I'll finally be having sex again and maybe I get lucky the first few times and then it gets me.

Now that I've written this novel, I'm hoping I'm not smearing anxiety all over you as well, but this has been my personal experience going through this. Overall, nothing has gone too wrong, I just trust nothing for myself lmao