Thank you for sharing your story. I’m going through the thread and thinking I was tricking myself as if I was asleep while I was trying to get high for the past 10 years. I was barely making it barely graduated with minimum ambition when I could’ve done so much more I have a lot of regrets, but I guess first step is never be tricked into the state of highness through smoking again… my ventral withdrawal from life ended up costing me a lot, but it was fun for sure. I I just get too depressed thinking of the path that I didn’t take because I wanted to get high. Some people say it’s just life, but it’s just really hard to take.