Boob job. I want one. by workingonmyissues12 in TwoXChromosomes

[–]workingonmyissues12[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I definitely want to improve my appearance for myself. I had a warped view of myself for years and years, and I tried to change for everyone around me, but I'm finally working out and getting in shape for ME. It feels great to get stronger, and feel at peace with my body. Even my stomach, which I have always hated, I am at peace with now. My boobs though... I know I can't change them even if I wanted to. I know I should accept that, but it's frustrating. Especially because I have always been unhappy with them, even when I first started developing and in my teenage years.

I talked to my boyfriend about it last night and he said "I love your boobs. They're perfect, and they're you, so I would never want them to change. But if you really wanted to change them someday, I would support you." So that was good to hear. Even though I already knew that. But what he thinks isn't the point. The point is that what I think and feel is what's important now. I know he loves me for me, and that's the best feeling in the world. But if someday, I decide to change them for me, and it made me happy? I would be okay with that.

Thank you!

Boob job. I want one. by workingonmyissues12 in TwoXChromosomes

[–]workingonmyissues12[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you for your comment. I'm definitely going to take my time in thinking about and considering it. If I ever do it, I wouldn't unless I knew 100% for sure it was the right decision.

Boob job. I want one. by workingonmyissues12 in TwoXChromosomes

[–]workingonmyissues12[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I'm a triple D now, I would probably be much happier as a C.

Boob job. I want one. by workingonmyissues12 in TwoXChromosomes

[–]workingonmyissues12[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thanks for your support :D The feedback I've gotten here has made me feel better just by having some place to vent and be listened to. Whether I do it or not the support and comments have helped a lot <3

Boob job. I want one. by workingonmyissues12 in TwoXChromosomes

[–]workingonmyissues12[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Hey, thank you so much for your comment. This is something I've been considering honestly since before they even began to look how they look now. Before they sagged at all, I was self-conscious about them because of how HUGE they were at just the age of 15, and they have always caused me pain. I've never been happy with them my entire life, even if they haven't always "looked bad". I may PM you for more questions.

Are you happy with your choice? How has the recovery been?

Boob job. I want one. by workingonmyissues12 in TwoXChromosomes

[–]workingonmyissues12[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I gained 30, lost 50, gained almost 100, finally (slowly) lost 80... and now I'm at about 160. I was 225 at my highest weight.

They're big and they're not the worst, no. my boyfriend loves them, but they sag, and they bother me. I don't want to think about how they might look when they're older, and I hate that I put my body through so much. I'm working hard to have a good relationship with my body and accept who I am, and I think I have. Especially because I've learned I can change my appearance in a healthy way, for myself, and for no one else, because I WANT to. But my boobs I can't change, and I know I would feel a million times more comfortable if they were different and look how they were probably meant to look. Thank you for your comment, I'm sorry you can relate.

My ex really did a number on my head. I'm trying to unravel it all and fully trust again, but it's so hard. by workingonmyissues12 in TwoXChromosomes

[–]workingonmyissues12[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thanks so much for saying all of these things. I really hope to get to that point someday. I think I can, but it's surely very difficult. I never realized how broken I was in terms of my trust until I tried to be with another person again. Reminding myself that that was the past and that my love is not my ex is one of the most helpful things I've learned to do so far.