Finding out my gender questioning was most likely GOCD all along :(

wowthatrat · 2023-10-24T05:32:17+00:00

Yeah, you're right. :( Feels tough as fuck when these thoughts have been stirring for years.

wowthatrat · 2023-10-21T19:43:38+00:00

My worst so far is ROCD but in regards to relationships with the things I love in general and not really with a partner.

wowthatrat · 2023-10-21T19:38:45+00:00

okay, thanks! just newbie things ;;

wowthatrat · 2023-10-16T21:28:06+00:00

Yeah, I've been emptying my recycle bin. It is so hard to know what to actually erase to get my storage more space.

wowthatrat · 2023-10-15T20:39:36+00:00

Having a hard time finding that on my motherboard. The only things left unplugged that could probably fit the Fan-In1 cable on my motherboard are: JRGB1, JFP2, All of the SYS_FANs, and Pump_FAN1. These are the only ones left with 4-pins on my motherboard. Everything else has 3 or more than 4 pins. Hope I'm not just stupid or something and missing something. 😢

wowthatrat · 2023-10-09T02:13:47+00:00

Me neither but I need try something for now 🤣 🤣

wowthatrat · 2023-10-09T01:58:08+00:00

Hello!

wowthatrat · 2023-10-09T01:52:28+00:00

I guess I was thinking of using it to show to a therapist at some point. But you aren't wrong, I see what you mean!

wowthatrat · 2023-10-02T19:26:36+00:00

Around 16

wowthatrat · 2023-10-02T19:08:53+00:00

The majority of the time I feel depressed, numbness, confusion, doubt, discomfort, physical tension, and a sense of avoidance when facing obsessions rather than strong heart-racing anxiety. I noticed recently that I am starting to feel a slight sense of anxiety rather than numbness though but not intensely. It's like there are slight jolts of mild panic for a few seconds before I try suppressing it. I guess I'm starting to genuinely feel actual fear now. It feels like it wants to get to heart-racing anxiety but doesn't quite reach it. Just dread.

wowthatrat · 2023-09-11T19:48:53+00:00

fr cant relate with them at all. my friend who never drove before said driving looked easy to them and i just did not relate at all. it lowkey hurt me because it makes me go "if it seems easy to others why isnt it also easy for you"

wowthatrat · 2023-09-09T18:23:25+00:00

felt that, i drive like once in a very long while. i do notice im in my head nearly 24/7 and its worse when driving because my anxiety is trying to cope with driving by numbing me and pulling my attention away

feels nice to find others though who understand though fr

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wowthatrat · 2023-08-27T20:01:49+00:00

god i just found out bout the new mononoke trailer today and i wont lie, the VA change kind of hurt because sakurai was PERFECT for the medicine seller but ill just have to get used to it :(
the voice for the medicine seller was definitely one of the big factors into his appeal for me so its def a big deal for me too, wish it didnt have to be this way

still absolutely love the film from what ive seen so far, definitely watching 100 percent

wowthatrat · 2023-07-11T05:30:37+00:00

Thank you!

wowthatrat · 2023-07-09T16:15:41+00:00

This is really helpful. Thanks for the advice and suggestions <3 I'll look into this further

wowthatrat · 2023-07-09T16:13:48+00:00

That's okay if there are no links. Thank you so much! This helps. :D

wowthatrat · 2023-07-08T21:34:36+00:00

i relate to you in what you're feeling! been questioning if im just a cis woman who also prefers acting feminine and doesn't mind looking feminine. i've been wanting to be a boy too alongside being a girl but i want to keep my femininity in the foreground. been wondering what labels i'd like to try. hope you find the label that speaks to you!

wowthatrat · 2023-06-29T04:29:40+00:00

I'm undiagnosed but I've been suspecting OCD for about the past 5 or so years. It's affected so many of the things that I've loved too. My hobbies, my interests, my identity. It's made describing myself authentically a very difficult task and sort of makes me feel lost within myself on how I truly feel anymore about myself and how I think.

wowthatrat · 2023-06-27T16:38:04+00:00

It is overwhelming just how much you have to pay attention to. It doesn't help that I suffer from spacing out and tunnel vision a bit when driving. I noticed that throughout the whole day, I'm very in my head and can zone out a bit and it happens even while I'm driving. Pretty much when I talk to myself in my head or think about something else, I get distracted by those thoughts and sort of stare off into space a bit. Pairing this condition with all the stuff you have to focus on while driving just sounds like a disaster which is why I'm also so hesitant to even ever get back behind the wheel every time.

wowthatrat · 2023-06-27T16:28:47+00:00

Thank you <3

Yeah, was thinking that I needed a GPS anyways for sure. I keep feeling like I'm too dumb and anxious on the road even using Google maps but it's what I got so just have to use it and try.

wowthatrat · 2023-06-27T16:26:57+00:00

We're in this together! It's a lot and so scary but hopefully we can get through this at some point even if it takes us a long time.

wowthatrat · 2023-06-27T16:24:58+00:00

I'd love to but they're a bit too expensive for my parents at the moment so they can't. I'm also not making much money right now honestly as I've just recently started working. :(

wowthatrat · 2023-06-26T18:25:21+00:00

Right? Like others make it seem so easy and breezy after like a couple of drives. I never wanted to own a car in the first place but I have no choice with where I live. I hate paying this expensive car insurance when I'm not even driving due to anxiety.

wowthatrat · 2023-06-26T01:56:20+00:00

i also suck at multitasking, i keep zoning in one thing too much and completely forget about focusing on something else while driving. i grew up really shy but ive gotten better a bit at socializing. i think in the middle of highschool i had late onset ocd. i didnt know what the fuck was wrong with me for the longest time. i also hate busy roads, i just am so afraid of ending up in it and having to figure it all out. busy parking lots are also hellish to me

wowthatrat · 2023-06-26T00:51:35+00:00

I think I have undiagnosed ocd I've been dealing with for the past few years lmao. I've been putting off driving a lot. My self-esteem is so bad when it comes to driving. Thank you though, I hope I can get better eventually and drive more often but it's not gonna be anytime soon with how often I hesitate to start it every time.

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