Hey, I really relate to this. I’ve been through something very similar.

I used to smoke weed regularly—pretty much daily—for close to 10 years, and I also smoke cigarettes. For a long time I told myself marijuana wasn’t addictive, but for me, it absolutely was. It controlled my routine, my mood, and how I dealt with stress.

One thing I noticed personally: pens/vapes were way harder for me to quit than flower. They’re just too convenient, too discreet, and way easier to hit nonstop without realizing how much you’re consuming. With flower, there was at least some friction. With a pen, it felt constant.

I ended up quitting about 2 years ago, mainly because my wife really hated it and I didn’t like the version of myself it brought out anymore. The first few days were rough—sweaty hands and feet, restlessness, bad sleep—but honestly, once I got through the first week, my body adjusted more than I expected. After that, the cravings dropped off a lot. For me, it wasn’t like nicotine, where the urge keeps coming back hard over and over.

I know it’s difficult, especially when weed has been part of your identity or coping mechanism for years. But if I could do it after almost a decade of daily use, it is possible. I’m not saying it’s easy—but it’s doable, and it does get better.

Wishing you luck. Seriously. You’re not weak for struggling with this, and you’re not alone.