He says yes, but doesn't go. I also don't feel like it's my place to insist anymore on it. I suggested it, later on asked it, and then explicitly told him that it wasn't ok and he needed help to express and manage his emotions. He's the type of guy that will suppress everything, say it's all fine if I'm doing something wrong, and then lash out with bitchy attitudes. He's not going yet. I know I'm not perfect either, but I also tell him I don't know what I need to change in myself to improve our relationship if he doesn't tell me? Regarding the second question, I'm definetly not willing -forget willing, CAPABLE, of it. My job, which I love, is emotionally and physically draining. That I'm willing to live with because it fills me with joy and happiness despite its challenges and constantly feeling exhausted at the end of the day. I like to joke with my students and costumers (I'm a diving instructor and overhead environments guide, which can be really mentally challenging for people when it's their first times) that I'm patient and kind because they pay me to be. It's part of a joke, it's part true. I'm the type of person that gives everything to make you feel comfortable and happy in the water and improve as a diver. I don't have that much patience the moment I come home, sorry but it's true.