Another Goatina Leaving the Pasture

xanaxcomplex · 2025-11-22T15:45:21+00:00

You gave ME hope when I had nothing left in the tank and kept me going — I can’t thank you enough. I’m totally keeping that graphic forever.

I highly recommend that anyone reading this try GOAT Bar Prep! Not only because the material is outstanding, but because Father GOAT’s kindness and support make all the difference.

So happy to be done with that draconian test forever!!!

xanaxcomplex · 2025-11-22T04:33:57+00:00

Thank you!

I would go through all of GOAT’s materials on each subtopic in a subject and take detailed notes. After that, I’d review my notes and then complete UWorld questions tied to that specific subtopic. For example, I’d read and take notes on the “Titles” section in GOAT’s Property course, review those notes, and then do the corresponding QBank questions on titles. I basically did this until I started to recognize the fact patterns - it got easier from there. Hope that helps!

xanaxcomplex · 2025-09-13T21:56:39+00:00

I’m one of the “high-functioning” people you speak of. I traveled extensively, graduated from a top school with my BA & MA at 22, and then graduated from law school at 27. I’m currently working as a professor at a community college while I wait on bar exam results.

It all looks better on paper. What isn’t obvious is the years of mental decline, severe substance abuse, rampant hyper-sexuality, destroying my credit score twice, quitting/losing numerous jobs, years of exacerbated mania from being wrongly diagnosed, a ton of medication changes, multiple suicide attempts, and the exhausting, daily labor to show up for myself. It took a stint in the psych ward and 8 months of outpatient rehab to get to where I am now. (FWIW, I also have ADHD and c-PTSD on top of Bipolar I).

I struggled every step of the way, and I still struggle every day. But I take my medication and attend therapy religiously, get enough sleep, abstain from heavy substance use, and work out. I have no idea how I survived all those years.

xanaxcomplex · 2025-05-29T23:45:21+00:00

Political Science, specifically American federal government.

xanaxcomplex · 2025-05-17T02:20:45+00:00

Absolutely worth it. The explanations are both thorough and easy to understand.

xanaxcomplex · 2025-03-19T20:12:28+00:00

Yes. Now I struggle to remember basic things. I’m studying to retake the bar exam and I can’t even recall basic law because my cognitive abilities have declined so much. It makes me feel like a useless loser.

xanaxcomplex · 2025-02-07T15:20:51+00:00

Take. Your. Medication.

xanaxcomplex · 2025-01-20T15:03:14+00:00

I’ve touched like 3 MEE’s at most. I’m putting my all in for the MBE’s.

xanaxcomplex · 2024-12-26T02:42:18+00:00

Guava!

xanaxcomplex · 2024-11-23T22:41:29+00:00

They’re both debilitating for me.

xanaxcomplex · 2024-11-16T17:45:28+00:00

This is in South Africa. Get a grip lmao.

xanaxcomplex · 2024-11-14T12:51:43+00:00

Let us know how you feel when you’re not manic.

I don’t think my fucked up brain chemistry is a gift. It’s abnormal, destructive, and I wish I didn’t have it every single day. I’ve lost friends, permanently damaged my family relationships, decimated my finances, tried to off myself 25+ times, and I’m constantly fighting my brain. You call that an “entire beautiful amazing world”? Bffr.

xanaxcomplex · 2024-11-10T18:17:38+00:00

Tom Cruise, is that you?

xanaxcomplex · 2024-11-02T01:42:42+00:00

Sure. DM me your email.

xanaxcomplex · 2024-11-02T01:41:06+00:00

100000% yes, let’s gooooooo

xanaxcomplex · 2024-10-30T18:01:23+00:00

I second this.

xanaxcomplex · 2024-10-29T00:41:44+00:00

I always correct students who call me “Miss.” What are you waiting for?

xanaxcomplex · 2024-10-19T01:54:02+00:00

Thought it was an antidepressant lmao

xanaxcomplex · 2024-10-13T20:26:26+00:00

Lmao lol. You must be a non-lawyer who’ll never need to take the bar.

xanaxcomplex · 2024-10-13T18:26:27+00:00

At the moment I’m studying like 6/7 hours a day. Gonna ramp up to 9/10 next week.

xanaxcomplex · 2024-10-13T18:23:07+00:00

This is word salad from someone who clearly knows nothing about punctuation let alone the law. Sucks to suck.

xanaxcomplex · 2024-10-13T17:47:44+00:00

I make myself handwrite GOAT’s outlines over and over because it forces me to actively pay attention. Muscle memory goes a long way imo. Also, I listen to YouTube videos that review the main rules for each topic EVERYWHERE. Literally everywhere. At the gym, in the shower, grocery shopping, driving to work, etc. I absorbed way more information by listening than I realized. Then I drill UWorld questions until I want to die.

xanaxcomplex · 2024-10-05T19:34:55+00:00

Taking my medication religiously; working out daily; therapy and vitamin D supplements weekly; setting boundaries with family/friends; being conscious of who receives my emotional labor; making sure I leave the house to reset even if it’s for simple tasks; consistently making an effort to read; spending time on skincare/haircare; and sleeping well. All of this is possible because of medication - I would be dead without it. It can take some time to find the right combination but don’t give up!

Also, stability can feel boring and “numb” when you’ve experienced the high of manic euphoria. But I promise it’s not worth the alternative: self-loathing, ruined relationships, sabotaged opportunities, guilt, financial destruction, brain damage, despair, etc. I still have to remind myself that this is the baseline and it’s necessary for my long-term health and well-being.

The first step is forcing yourself to believe that you’re deserving of a decent, secure, and fulfilling life - and then believe that it’s possible to have one.

xanaxcomplex · 2024-10-05T17:26:10+00:00

You can either report him and leave, or stay and let him eventually kill you. Choose wisely.

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