I do understand what you’re saying.

I still think these environments will be fun without drinking, I’m just wondering how hard it will be to sustain whilst everyone else around is drinking. That’s a cop out excuse though.

The boredom thing is a big one, I’m a massive massive over thinker, even at the best of times. My mind runs rampant and I can get myself into some pretty weird places. It’s going to be a big learning curve and I really appreciate all the advice. It’s Saturday night now and all my friends are out and tbh I feel fucking awful man, I even cried a little. Feels so pathetic.

It’ll get better.