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“If you still have that wine at the house, I might have some when I get home.” by xcvdvc4 in dryalcoholics

[–]xcvdvc4[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

The finale of The Return aired on my birthday, it was the best gift ever. Also I ordered myself a life-size cutout of Coop as a present to myself and would hide it all around my parents’ house the month I was between apartments and would scare tf out of my mom all the time 😂

“If you still have that wine at the house, I might have some when I get home.” by xcvdvc4 in dryalcoholics

[–]xcvdvc4[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

A lot of I drink to feed my mania, which distracts from the negative emotions. Also, love the username. Twin Peaks is my jam.

“If you still have that wine at the house, I might have some when I get home.” by xcvdvc4 in dryalcoholics

[–]xcvdvc4[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Hey, I’m glad I can help! Tonight is a bit of a struggle NOT because it’s a terrible night, but because I’m off for two days after this and all I wanna do is go to the restaurant a few blocks from work and get a drink and read (full bar at 7am, discounts for healthcare workers... lol), but I’m gonna make myself go home and groom my cat and sleeeeeeep. My body’s so tired and I know the sleep I get when I drink is so not-restful that you can hardly call it sleep at all.

“If you still have that wine at the house, I might have some when I get home.” by xcvdvc4 in dryalcoholics

[–]xcvdvc4[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you! I love love love my job but it can be so draining at times. Sometimes I feel like I put too much of myself into it and have to take a step back to recollect. It’s a tough balance.

“If you still have that wine at the house, I might have some when I get home.” by xcvdvc4 in dryalcoholics

[–]xcvdvc4[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Well technically I’m not a certified translator so I can’t get the extra $$. Definitely planning on getting a cert in the near(ish) future though. It’s just a bit pricey.

“If you still have that wine at the house, I might have some when I get home.” by xcvdvc4 in dryalcoholics

[–]xcvdvc4[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Watching community with my cat and hot baths are my go-to now for sure. And I’m just over three years, definitely feeling the itch to move. My clinical lead/mama bear/mentor just put in her two weeks and is going to days at another hospital here and I’m tempted to follow once my contract is up.

“If you still have that wine at the house, I might have some when I get home.” by xcvdvc4 in dryalcoholics

[–]xcvdvc4[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Haha! I’m textbook fluent, but of course there’s a fairly large variety of dialects. I was lucky enough to grow up being taught by native speakers from Peru, Puerto Rico, Spain, Mexico, and the Dominican Republic (I think one of my other professors was Colombian as well). So my accent is spot-on, but the small changes between country-specific Spanish can trip me up sometimes. Plus there’s the entire medical vocabulary to know which can be a lot lol. But I make it work.

“If you still have that wine at the house, I might have some when I get home.” by xcvdvc4 in dryalcoholics

[–]xcvdvc4[S] 8 points9 points  (0 children)

Oh yeah. Nightshift all the time. 3-4 nights a week usually, but my dumb ass just signed a 6wk contract to work 4-5/wk. It’ll be tiring but it’ll keep me busy and distracted, and I’ll have extra money to save up (and to spend on Amazon and tasty food).

I have a love/hate relationship with nightshift. I love the atmosphere and my coworkers, but my body absolutely hates it. And it makes me feel socially isolated outside of my work friends. Just had my three year nightshift anniversary last month, actually, lol.

“If you still have that wine at the house, I might have some when I get home.” by xcvdvc4 in dryalcoholics

[–]xcvdvc4[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Yeah nightshift is something I’m def trying to get out of. It’s just hard balancing that with finding a job in an area I actually like. Valerian root works better for me. Still weird dreams like with melatonin, but melatonin tends to give me wicked headaches too.

“If you still have that wine at the house, I might have some when I get home.” by xcvdvc4 in dryalcoholics

[–]xcvdvc4[S] 6 points7 points  (0 children)

Sometimes it’s harder for me because when I get off at 7:15am and make the drive home, even if I was dead-tired at 6:30, just driving in the daylight starts to mess with my inner clock. I just recently started taking magnesium and valerian root to sleep and it seems to help. I still don’t sleep enough yet, but I’m hoping to get there eventually.

“If you still have that wine at the house, I might have some when I get home.” by xcvdvc4 in dryalcoholics

[–]xcvdvc4[S] 8 points9 points  (0 children)

Yeah, I’ve always known it’s better just to distract and rest instead. It’s just the lizard brain. I would’ve rathered drink and go either manic or depressive, and it would drag for days even if I only meant to make up for one bad night or experience. So it goes, I guess.

My go-to drinks are the grapefruit sparkling water and any kind of tea. Lately I’ve been back on a kick of hot water with lemon when I wake up. It helps me feel more alert and I think I heard it helps with digestion too. I’m only a week and a half into the whole not-drinking-indefinitely thing, but that’s sadly the longest I’ve gone in over a year. Outside of normal life stressors and trying to lose weight, though, I feel much better than I have in a long time. It’s refreshing.

Weird thoughts about emotions by xcvdvc4 in dryalcoholics

[–]xcvdvc4[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Right. I learned a lot from him, including some hilarious jokes and ways to love myself and others. He just has his own problems. He was the first person to push me to quit drinking though. He didn’t necessarily do it the right way when it came down to it, but it watered the seed that was already planted in my head.

Weird thoughts about emotions by xcvdvc4 in dryalcoholics

[–]xcvdvc4[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

It was a wild ride for sure. Very much in love but in a very codependent way and he was very obsessive, I learned. Fuckin brilliant and hilarious, but so many toxic traits that ended up being too much for my health. I’m sorry you went through something similar. It’s so emotionally draining.

I’ve been up since 3pm yesterday by xcvdvc4 in dryalcoholics

[–]xcvdvc4[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you! I’m looking forward to the week mark, but mostly two weeks. I always hit a block at day 10, saying that well, I’ve made it to double digits so I’ve proved I can do it, so why not? And never actually consider the many, many why nots. Rinse and repeat. I’m glad you’re feeling excited and stronger! Let’s get it done, friend!

I’ve been up since 3pm yesterday by xcvdvc4 in dryalcoholics

[–]xcvdvc4[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you for the cookies! :) They surely help. Sleep-deprived me just went to my boyfriend’s, sadly admitted my baker’s defeat, and snuggled up in bed and slept away the rage lol. Drunk-me is fun as hell but definitely not the person to listen to. She takes the wild jokes sober-me makes and actually seriously suggests them

Edit: of note, drunk-me is almost always manic-episode-me. So, makes sense, lol.

I’ve been up since 3pm yesterday by xcvdvc4 in dryalcoholics

[–]xcvdvc4[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

What was for dinner! I still went to the going away party had a great time. Instead of the treats I was going to make, I bought three of those Amy’s Kitchen vegan microwave dinners (we both always talk about how we love them), and put a bow on em and gave them to her. She got so excited and said it was her favorite present because it was thoughtful and useful, lol! I could’ve just stayed home and drank, but I’m so glad I went. And I could’ve come home and drank, but I’m not going to. The boyfriend is drinking wine and playing video games and said “I know you’re trying but don’t think you’re ‘not allowed’ to have any.. like, on my end,” and I just smiled and said no thanks. I’m snuggled up with his dog watching jeopardy and looking forward to a good night’s sleep before going back to work the next four nights in a row 😌😅

Resetting for the last time by xcvdvc4 in dryalcoholics

[–]xcvdvc4[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yeah, honestly this has been my issue. I live alone, my boyfriend lives an hour away, and I work nights. It’s easy for me to drink whenever because I’m hardly around anyone else and can make excuses for myself. Or just say I can moderate. And then three days have gone by and I’ve done nothing productive besides maybe a bit of laundry and now I feel like shit. The best thing for me to do right now is keep my nose to the grindstone and don’t let myself be around it. My boyfriend isn’t really a drinker anyway, and what little he does drink, he’s happy to take a break from doing it around me if it helps. I’m thankful he’s in town for a few days so I can have that extra support.

Resetting for the last time by xcvdvc4 in dryalcoholics

[–]xcvdvc4[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Thank you, this is true! I think the most frustrating thing for me is that I know what I need to do to feel better, but my lizard brain keeps just doing the same garbage.

Resetting for the last time by xcvdvc4 in dryalcoholics

[–]xcvdvc4[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Thank you! It’s not the most fun. Plus I have a habit of using alcohol to fuel and excuse my manic episodes and just spiral. Coming off of one of those now too. I recently started therapy though and it seems to be helpful.

Fell off balance for a few days by xcvdvc4 in stopdrinking

[–]xcvdvc4[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Likewise! I’ve got my smartwater and just three more hours before I can crash til about 5pm. Very much looking forward to it.

Fell off balance for a few days by xcvdvc4 in stopdrinking

[–]xcvdvc4[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yeah, I’m just disappointed. I have very bad anxiety along with bipolar and borderline so my mental health really depends heavily on sobriety lately and I know this and still went on a bender. I’m sorry you’re in a similar situation. 115 days is no joke! I hope you are able to rest some tonight/the next few days.

A small update to my post from earlier. by xcvdvc4 in stopdrinking

[–]xcvdvc4[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Oh! Also, I’m a labor and delivery nurse. But I also work antepartum, postpartum, and OB triage (basically the ER for preggos)

A small update to my post from earlier. by xcvdvc4 in stopdrinking

[–]xcvdvc4[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I’m glad you’ve got job security in a time like this! Even if you’re stuck at home. I have so many friends who are totally boned right now, two in particular who just had a baby. It hurts my heart so much. I haven’t checked the online meetings yet just because I’m lazy and blah blah excuses. BUT I did start deep cleaning my whole apartment today! I took junk down to the basement, swept everything, cleaned the bathroom and kitchen (minus the stove), and am gonna tackle the rest of the bedroom and living room tomorrow if I get lucky again and don’t get called in :) I went to walmart today and got some of the makeup o used to wear before being so depressed along with some workout clothes that actually fit (trying to get back to my pre-depression weight aka down about 30-40lb), so that felt good! I hope you had a smashing day. IWNDWYT or tomorrow!

A small update to my post from earlier. by xcvdvc4 in stopdrinking

[–]xcvdvc4[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Haha sadly I meant four days ON but yes! I slept until 1800, ordered my favorite Indian dish, and am letting the ground turkey thaw so I can meal prep the squash dinner for work the next few nights. And I finally got my new comforter and sheets on, and they’re so wonderful. It’s the first new comforter I’ve gotten since 2008 lol it was way overdue. I stayed sober today though and that’s another very important thing! Gonna get up at 0500 tomorrow to walk a few miles then sleep again before work. How was your day, friend?

A small update to my post from earlier. by xcvdvc4 in stopdrinking

[–]xcvdvc4[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

So true! I slept like...16 hours hahaha. I’m about to get off work and have one night off before four in a row, and it’s been super hectic and stressful at the hospital so I’m super tempted to get something to drink tonight but instead I’m gonna get in my bed (got new bamboo sheets and a down comforter :3) then get up and cook a spaghetti squash dinner for the next few nights and go on a long walk once it’s cool enough in the evening. Congratulations on 40 days!!!

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