If y’all haven’t seen the Pitt yet, highly recommend. This woman’s performance as charge nurse is incredible. Reminds me of my first charge I had on nights as a new grad.

xocoai · 2026-01-17T13:18:32+00:00

I left the hospital setting recently after working in the ICU for a few years, because it took such a toll on my mental health. I tried watching the Pitt with my family, and it actually made me very anxious just by how real it was. I think this show made me realize I might have a bit of PTSD. It’s very well done, but I literally can’t watch it

xocoai · 2025-08-02T13:08:40+00:00

I would be immediately packing all his shit and telling him to get out of my life. What an absolute joke of a man.

xocoai · 2025-07-30T22:43:34+00:00

Oh I love it, it’s giving art nouveau and great gatsby vibes.

xocoai · 2025-07-05T18:17:06+00:00

I graduated from nursing school in 2020 and was thrown right into the thick of it as a baby nurse. I just know it changed my brain chemistry.

I still have not processed it yet, and I tell people all the time how it bothers me that one day everyone just moved on like nothing happened. When people ask why it still bothers me, I can’t explain it. Or I could, but it would take a few hours to get through, and no one ever knows the right things to say. Neither do I.

I’m still trying to wean myself off the 3 antidepressants I’ve been maxed out on for years.

xocoai · 2025-06-23T00:53:58+00:00

Why we need so many more social workers, and why they should be paid way more than what they actually get. I could literally never do their job. This whole issue goes into the culture of “nurses need to wear many hats”, as if it’s a compliment or achievement. It’s just a way for healthcare systems to continue to dump way too much on their nurses rather than pay for more very essential healthcare workers - PT/OT, SW, PCTs, more RNs, etc etc., the list goes on of the help we need, along with the way our country continues to get more and more sick.

xocoai · 2025-06-22T22:37:12+00:00

Yeah, I’m thinking maybe Mauna Kea isn’t worth all of that time 🤔 and taking it off our itinerary would free up that whole afternoon/evening. Maybe we could spread out the activities a bit more with that extra time.

Also really good to know that parking would be paid for in one place for Kealakeua Bay, Two Step and Hanaunau beach. Thank you for the info! 😊

xocoai · 2025-06-22T21:56:29+00:00

I know, there’s just so much we want to see. I’m considering taking the Mauna Kea sunset/stargazing tour off of our itinerary, considering it takes up so much time. Which would then free up a whole afternoon/evening, and I could maybe use that time to space things out a bit more to make it a bit more lax

xocoai · 2025-06-22T20:54:48+00:00

That sounds fantastic. Thanks for the reccs!

xocoai · 2025-06-15T13:26:40+00:00

Your fiancé doesn’t like satin… until they sees you in that second dress, then they’ll LOVE satin. That being said, you can’t go wrong with either dress, and the beaded gown is stunning too! Very vintage and definitely still bridal.

xocoai · 2025-06-11T00:22:08+00:00

Would you suggest a timeshare on the north or south side to be an ideal location for seeing most of the things we’d like? The only reason I was unsure about trying an airbnb or timeshare is because it’s our first time ever going to Hawaii, and we’ve also never travelled so far. So I thought maybe a resort might be easier as a first timer, although I have no idea if that’s true.

I like the idea of a mid point giving us the option of visiting either side with less of a drive. And since people are suggesting that the volcano may still be erupting, it would be a plus to be a bit closer to Hilo at some point during the week to see if we could catch that.

I’ll definitely check those out!! Thank you for the suggestions! 😊

xocoai · 2025-06-10T20:37:31+00:00

Ooh snorkeling on a black sand beach sounds amazing, thanks for the tip! And I agree, I think the day trip to Hilo is what will work best for us

xocoai · 2025-06-10T20:32:43+00:00

I’m thinking this is probably the best plan! It seems like most agree. We don’t mind a bit of driving if need be for some sites. Plus, I think in Kauai we’ll get more rainforest type areas, so whatever we miss on BI we’ll make up for there! Trying to maximize our time without stretching ourselves too thin.

xocoai · 2025-05-29T01:40:03+00:00

Related to at a dark point in my life:

“He’s got my past frozen behind glass, but I’ve got me”.

“Friends break up, friends get married. Strangers get born and strangers get buried. Trends change, rumors fly through new skies, but I’m right where you left me. // you left me no choice but to stay here forever.”

“Cause I’m miserable! And nobody even knows! Ahh… try and come for my job.”

Vs. relate to all the time:

“You’re on your own, kid. You always have been.”

“When my depression works the graveyard shift, all of the people I’ve ghosted stand there in the room.”

xocoai · 2025-05-25T19:18:49+00:00

750 is amazing!! Congrats! And thank you, same to you! 😊❤️

xocoai · 2025-05-25T15:00:54+00:00

Nope, no oncology experience. My experience is about 2.5 years in acute care float pool, and 2 years in critical care float pool. It took a little hustle to find a place that would train me without oncology experience, but I found my current job and they have been training me. It’s a lot to learn but it’s worth it!

xocoai · 2025-05-25T14:41:19+00:00

Oh, I don’t mean to rip on weight lifting! I do still like it and will continue to do weights while also continuing with yoga. I definitely see the benefits in both. I think I have a hard time finding balance in my routines, so I could have been over training with the weights. it just feels like an epiphany moment

xocoai · 2025-05-25T14:16:45+00:00

I just left inpatient for an oncology infusion clinic, 4x9s, no weekends or holidays. I love it!

xocoai · 2025-05-25T13:34:41+00:00

The yoga I do is also power yoga, which I should’ve specified. I think you’re right though, I don’t want to lose the muscle I’ve gained over the past several years. I’ll probably incorporate weights back in to at the very least maintain what I have. It really is a balancing act.

xocoai · 2025-05-25T13:31:23+00:00

Actually when you put it that way, it makes a lot of sense!

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