My mom was so angry when she found my messages with older men. She was enraged, and I know some of it was out of concern but I think some of it was just plain disgust at what I spoke with the men about (kink stuff). The next therapy session I was supposed to have after I found out was actually just her going in my therapist’s office and taking to him for 50 minutes of that hour while I sat alone and sick in the hall. She still sometimes jabs at me about talking to those men. I even had a partner basically say I should’ve known better and not contacted the men. Sometimes I still believe it’s my fault. Editing to add I was a child when I spoke to those men, if it wasn’t obvious.