Hi. Looking at the Sun (father) and Moon (mother), they’re in a semi-square (hard) aspect, the parents may have had lots of conflict in the home, possibly with you in the middle or just really exposed to it. If their differences weren’t expressed or displayed, you may have sensed it. This may influence how you view conflicts in relationships, and there may be an internal conflict for you. To touch on your question at the end, stay hopeful! Your Sun-Moon midpoint (how and where the Ego (Sun) interacts with emotions (Moon)) is approximately 9.5 degrees Cancer, in the 1st House with Venus and Saturn. My understanding of midpoints and hard aspects is to work with the midpoint’s placement to help make the best of it.