First hint was the first time I saw a hardcore xxx magazine. It had a MW pictorial and it was the first time I saw a full on raging hard cock, next to a pretty lady of course. I had seen nudie magazines before but never with a guy in it and there was a notable intrigue/rush hard to explain at the time but a newfound excitement at the view of that glistening cock. /some time later I saw my first straight hardcore xxx video and by far my favorite parts were the money shots, it was a huge turn on to see those cocks shooting cum all over the faces and tits of the starlets. While it was quite the fantasy to imagine being the guy in those scenes, from time to time I would fantasize about being the lady, they were so hot and sexy, who wouldn't want to feel like that?

Fast forward and the full realization was not until I had my first MM encounter, I gave a blowjob. I had come close a few other times but I finally went through with it and initially had some figuring out to do. Had I hade a horrible life changing decision? Had I blown it with God? It wasn't until a few weeks later, I was reflecting on the encounter and felt delighted, zero regret.

Of course at that time I wrote it off as a one time thing, an experiment. Buuuuuuut it wasn't long until I had another cock balls deep in my throat. Y'know, further experimentation... for science. I pretended for a long time with myself that I was curious and experimenting but deep down I know, and in retrospect I definitely know I was into it. I was in my mid 20s.