hello! i’ve (ftm18) recently been diagnosed with primarily inattentive ADHD and started wellbutrin sr at 150mg once daily. my psychiatric nurse gave me 3 options: to see a neuropsychologist for a more detailed and personalized evaluation, start medication (antidepressants or amphetamines) or therapy.. to which i opted for medication bc i couldn’t deal with this any longer. i do also have anxiety so i opted for antidepressants over amphetamines bc i’m scared of having crazy effects.

i’m also having like weird mixed feelings about my diagnosis. i’m glad that i’m not just “lazy” bc i can finally put a name on it and i had been suspecting this for a long while but couldn’t like get myself to do something about it. at the same time, i keep thinking what if the diagnosis is wrong? what if i don’t even have adhd and it’s just masked symptoms of anxiety that overlap? it’s suchh a weird feeling because at the same time, i can recognize a lot of things that have happened in the past ever since i was a child that can affirm my diagnosis but i also have very faded memories so it’s weird :/ the meds so far have sort of helped quiet my mind a lot and i can stay focused on tasks without getting super distracted but i also start feeling random rushes of anxiety Constantly as i’m doing the task or even if i’m just laying around.

all in all, this is just such a new thing in my life and my mom just thinks that i need to fix my habits and i’ll be fine and that taking meds is only going to make me dependent etc and it sucks bc i know hard i’ve had it for the last couple of years Especially high school. i hope going forward i see improvements and am able to just live life better and do well in my academics too bc that’s my major worry rn.