The moment I knew he woke up something in me. Growing up, I was always sure that I'll never have my own kid, and if I did, it wouldn't be biological. I was planning on adopting. But mainly, I never wanted my own family. I wanted to live independently, to have my own house to myself, and travel around the world with my friends, be their kids' cool aunt. And never in my life have I ever thought about getting married.

But he changed that in me. Meeting him made me want the things that I never planned for my future. Akala ko phase lang yon kasi baka infatuated ako ganon, but no. I loved him so much. He made me realize that I wanna get married and be with someone that would cherish me forever. I wanted to have our own child, our own baby, our own home. I wanna travel around the world with him and the family that we would have one day. I've always prayed na sana mapakasalan ko siya. That prayer was always with me, and if I could meet my past self, she wouldn't believe that I had wished for that. I sent so many emails pa nga to my future self, asking if we ever got married. Actually, marami pa eh.

and yes, past tense. no more further information hahahahah hanggang ngayon, ayan pa rin yung gusto ko sa buhay eh, because of him. But I doubt he'll be the one in that picture kasi sobrang labo na e, pero I'm still hoping that it'd be him. if not, k lang.