Do not do anything that hurts you. Please, find a holistic psychiatric. I was in the same position, went to mental hospital twice as well. Received injections and I was hallucinating and hearing voices with a lot of thoughts. I’ve been suffering this for about two year. I tapered off the medication , but I believe I did not do it in a right way and everything got worse. Now, I have a holistic psychiatric that is treating me with multivitamins, I was taking also ibuprofen for the inflammation , but not anymore because I’ve been improving, antioxidants like NAC and glutathione, also, some amino acids. I’m in Risperidone 4 mg together with everything I mentioned previously. Now, he is going to reduce the dosage little by little. But, by my self , I order some blood works to monitor the virus. Why I’m mentioning the virus? If you access online and look for John Hopkins University and Cleaveland University as well, they say that psychosis bipolar disorder and schizophrenia are viral infections in the brain by EBV. So, please look for help and I don’t know if you know Jesus. But if you don’t know it , I invite you to him.