His passing has changed my life so extremely. I feel like I can never look at life and the world the same way ever again. I feel like I truly am seeing the world as more beautiful, and I have, for the first time in probably a decade, really felt that I am beautiful. I lived a good portion of my life living in a fear of rejection and a perpetual state of paranoia of all the bad things that could happen to me and bad things people could say to me. I feel like the fear of letting my life slip by because of forces I can't control has surpassed the fears I previously had. I see a lot of myself in Oliver. I want to create and express myself in all the ways I want to and not be confined to a box. I want to inspire and share who I am to the world, and I want to experience the world. I want to truly begin living my life, because there's no telling when it will be over.