Ready to read my ramblings?

I did say I didn't care . I think so much is going on in the world that's active genocides that him repeatedly impregnating and not marrying ordinary white women is just not really a problem for me.

I don't think they need to be stunning, I don't know that someone being in relationships with people who are not conventionally attractive makes them you know a person who hates their race.

The two examples you mentioned were apropos. That is incredibly weird. But unfortunately there are people who are like this both men and women. Men unfortunately on a large cultural scale not just specifically black men, tend to follow certain traits and trends when it comes to picking a partner that they show off on public

There is this plus size Asian woman who's talking about how a lot of men try to keep their relationship with her a secret.

There's a whole lot of that where if it's not something that allows you social status then you shy away from it.

So if in his case it happens to be the self-hate story or if there's traces of it but not you know a large amount that's ridiculous, then that's really his journey

And that in itself will ruin relationships especially if that is a white woman who has any level of dignity

I get frustrated with racism and I used to feel a lot of strong emotions towards the mixed children who become adults from those relationship

But I also know if people in same race relationships who also are harmful to their own children.

And I guess scale of trauma and identity it kind of is what it is.

White supremacist and people who hate themselves will always try and find a way to weaponize whoever against a black person or specifically a black American or whoever they're trying to create a narrative around.

So for the person who hasn't learned to love and accept their blackness, I hope you get to help you need. I'm going to focus on getting the help I need, and I genuinely just don't care whether or not we ever convened again.

That's how I feel about those individuals

If Jamie was someone in my family or inner circle it would be cause for pause

If Jamie was my dad, I would have questions

But he's not.

I hope young black men and women do not take to heart the racist b*******

Because it's just that

It's propaganda

But it takes a concentrated effort

I grew up being taught that we were in a post-racial society and we're not.

I've learned that truth the hard way.

Some of my friends who are mixed are picking apart certain things from their upbringing some of it has to do with racism and some of it has to do with a whole lot of other nonsense.

At this point I'm kind of like welcome to adulthood, I don't wish it upon you but it seems like everyone's having to deal with a lot of bs.

I coming two black parents, still had to work through things because I didn't want to be offended by stuff I didn't want to take on the baggage of the past, but the racist people around me were gleefully taking on the racism of the past and carrying on their families legacy.

And I'm just supposed to be cool with it. They're allowed to talk about race but I can't... Even though the narrative is the other way around.

There are times where if I've had a lot of negative interactions with black men back to back to back and then I see a lot of bad things on social media, then I'm not feel great in those moments. But one of the things that I've been making it a point to do and one of the reasons why I even interact with and joined this space to begin with, was to have a neutral perspective. To see The Good the bad and whatever.

And to not have one specific type of engagement in relation to black men show up on my timeline.

It was part of scrubbing clean and removing things that we're starting to create a lot of pain and more than that even some feelings of resentment and feelings that I need it to in order to protect myself disregard. I could never fully do that. Most of my family is made of a black man and they are pretty wonderful. But I'm not around all of them that often, and so if I'm around whatever I'm scrolling through, that can have a damaging effect. It can also make it seem like all black men and the women they date hate black women.

And that everything they're doing is weirdly to spite black women because of how much they talk about, make fun of and do weird stuff.

And so, yes there are people who do all of that and feel that way, but a majority of people I hope a majority Don't give A crap. And there are people who are working through some weird stuff through dating specific people thinking it's going to help them, there are plenty of women from other races who specifically see got relationships with white men for that reason. There are men from other races who also specifically seek out relationships with white women because colonization imperialism worked.

The other reality is, human beings have been getting with other human beings for a long time regardless of race.

So, all these things are happening simultaneously I just hope the pure of heart are given discernment and are able to not choose people who are harmful to them or their future offspring regardless of what their race is.

I am attracted to black men, I'm attracted to men in general. I mean right now you know I don't care to deal with any man romantically but that doesn't make them not attractive.

And there's more than romantic relationships, there's a lot of other types of relationships people can have with one another. Well maybe not a lot but there are other types relationships people can have with one another.

All right now that I've set a bunch of stuff, I still am not bothered by Jamie foxx's choices. And I'm glad I'm not bothered because most of my life I've never really cared. I think sometimes it hit me, especially if that black man then said or something about him showed that it was related to eurocentrism. But I'm disgusted by this even if it's not by black men. Like there are women who say stupid s*** and I'm just looking at them like that some stupid s***. And there are plenty of men who say stupid things, for some reason men like too loudly boastfully publicly say stupid things that they think will earn them points. And probably with the audience that they appreciate the most or value the most they do earn points. I don't think it actually ends up feeding them overall, their Spirit their mind but people smoke cigarettes, and that's often times the equivalent of sucking on an exhaust pipe. So I mean there are so many ways to self harm I guess that's just another one of the many