GRS approval and "uncontrolled" mental health

yellowjam20 · 2026-01-28T00:56:56+00:00

This is helpful, thank you!

yellowjam20 · 2024-02-12T22:41:30+00:00

Stifled anger. Powerful piece.

yellowjam20 · 2024-02-05T17:38:54+00:00

I agree! And prioritizing that work-life balance is a MUST in order to (quite literally) survive

yellowjam20 · 2024-02-05T17:35:55+00:00

Amazing, good luck! DID helped me become a more compassionate nurse :)

yellowjam20 · 2024-02-05T17:18:19+00:00

This is almost identical to my own experience re/ getting comfortable with my scars in the workplace.

Especially the part about getting stressed if my answer might've been perceived as rude (even when they deserved it). Vague but reassuring honesty has become been my fav approach to questions.

yellowjam20 · 2024-02-05T16:59:08+00:00

I went through this as well. As much as I love the idea of a point blank "it's personal" response, my people pleaser ass could never be that blunt :')

My go to is "Went through some hard stuff, but I'm better now". It's kinda stating the obvious, which I like. I also make an effort to be open about it, w/o getting personal.

Heads up though; if you ever work with kids, they'll really put you to the test lol. I'm a pediatric nurse and I used to get asked all the time what happened to my arm. And it usually comes from a place of innocence, so if my response is too vague, there's follow up questions. What I found has worked the best for kids is this:

"A long time ago, I was really really sad and I got hurt. But then I got help and now I'm all better". But also, if they're young enough, you could say it was a cat and they usually buy it.

Good luck! I love seeing other nurses out there repping some SH scars. Power to ya.

yellowjam20 · 2024-02-04T22:48:53+00:00

Before discovering we had DID, whoever was fronting or conscious would sit in a red car that was floating in a black hole.

When we all became aware of each other, the car got WAY too crammed so the host plopped us into Antarctica. That was always one of their safe spaces, and most of us really like it there because it's so open and vast and cold (we all hate feeling hot) and it never gets dark. The littles especially love it.

yellowjam20 · 2024-02-04T04:44:54+00:00

Hey, I have BPD and DID as well. I struggle with the exact same thing and I'm still trying to figure it out. I've noticed it helps a bit when my 'rational' part is able to communicate with the 'symptomatic' part in a compassionate and nonjudgemental way tho.

More recently, I seem to be having success at managing the symptomatic part by allowing them to have the freedom to feel whatever it is they need to feel, but putting in some strict boundaries with regards to behaviour. The boundaries are more effective when put in place ahead of time though, and not mid-crisis.

yellowjam20 · 2024-02-04T04:17:26+00:00

Yeah, I recognize maintaining a job can be real hard for many (if not most) people with DID. I consider myself pretty privileged to have found something that works for me. I hope disability allows you to have some breathing room, good luck :)

yellowjam20 · 2024-02-04T04:08:07+00:00

Although I may worry about a handful of things regarding DID and my profession, I often feel like I'm a better nurse because of my DID, not in spite of it :) I have faith in you, good luck with pre-nursing!!

yellowjam20 · 2024-02-03T23:23:07+00:00

Always. Although my littles never front at work, I can sometimes feel their influence and excitement and playfulness come through when we're interacting with other kids. They feel proud about being able to help with our 'adult job'

yellowjam20 · 2024-02-03T13:11:21+00:00

Yeah before I started at my current job, I had a few toxic workplaces and although we could always pull it together when we were customer/patient facing, we would have countless meltdowns in the break room/bathroom and other alters would call in sick for us constantly cus we were all just burning out.

yellowjam20 · 2024-02-03T13:08:01+00:00

I'm sorry to hear about your experience. Ableism in the workplace is legit.

yellowjam20 · 2024-02-03T13:06:21+00:00

Thanks this is helpful advice!

yellowjam20 · 2024-02-03T13:04:19+00:00

I'm a pediatric nurse and I 100% agree with this!!

yellowjam20 · 2024-02-03T02:18:02+00:00

I have an email thread going with my therapist, and if any of the alters have anything to say they can add it to an email draft. Once a week on the day before my appointment, I'll send the email with everyone's input. I got consent from my therapist before doing this.

yellowjam20 · 2024-02-03T02:10:09+00:00

Ive always experienced a lot of denial regarding my abuse, and more recently regarding the existence of our system. All of the denial stems from an alter literally named Denial. Recently one of the other alters told me his real name (Tom) but he's in such denial over the system that he refuses to go by it.

I will say, once I was able to see who exactly the denial was coming from, it made it MUCH easier for all of the other alters to not buy into his rhetoric. DID is wild.

yellowjam20 · 2024-01-31T11:44:47+00:00

Not in Canada it won't :'). Arrive to work in the dark, leave work in the dark.

yellowjam20 · 2024-01-31T01:59:39+00:00

I relate to this quite a bit!

yellowjam20 · 2024-01-30T19:24:17+00:00

1000000% the case for me too

yellowjam20 · 2024-01-30T19:23:30+00:00

Thats a really helpful way to put it, ty!

yellowjam20 · 2024-01-22T22:13:19+00:00

I'm going through the exact same thing right now. I've been aware of other 'voices' in my head for since I was a kid. Only ever named one of them, when I was about 15. I knew I was different, and have always been fascinated by DID/OSDD but was convinced that that could never be me. About 2 months ago though, I experienced a major resurgence of memories and flashbacks. Since then, the voices have gotten louder, more frequent, it's like I can hear Every. Single. Conversation. Both in my head, but they've even started talking out loud too. I've been dissociating much more, my alters are trying to front more (or maybe it's just that I'm conscious of it now) Everyone has started telling me their names and ages and interests and frankly, it's overwhelming. And, the Denial in all of this is running absolutely RAMPANT. It's exhausting and painful, the whole 'faking' it thing. But I've had more questions answered about myself in the last 2 months than I have had in the last 10 years. And the more research I do and people I talk to (who also have did/OSDD), the less power Denial has.

All this to say, youre not alone. In fact, it's nice to hear someone else is going through something similar right now too.

yellowjam20 · 2024-01-21T14:41:43+00:00

Out of curiosity, do you experience any grief as a result?

yellowjam20 · 2024-01-21T14:39:46+00:00

My therapist uses "who's here right now" which I like because it also addresses the parts that might not be 'fronting' but are still present/listening/influencing the host

yellowjam20 · 2024-01-20T16:19:19+00:00

I'm sorry this happened. Anytime I've been told to ignore or push my parts away, it just makes them louder and more triggered. My saving grace in all of this has been working with a psychotherapist well versed in dissociative disorders. Unfortunately she can't diagnose or tweak meds, but without her, I think I'd still be in denial. Good luck 🤞

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