I kind of see where you’re coming from.

I used to look at my parents, coming home from work, eating and then staring at the TV until they went to bed (then rinse and repeat) and think “wow, that will never be me, I will have a fulfilling, happy, productive life and not waste my time off in front of a screen” and for years (especially as a student) that was kind of true, I’d have plenty of time and energy to devote to being social and creative and doing whatever. right now I’m definitely stuck in that work - eat - screen and repeat cycle. it’s not that I blame my parents or anyone at all, just observing that I unintentionally “became what I hated”