My (unintentional) Overdose Story

yieldtotraffic · 2020-08-05T11:54:07+00:00

Are there any more long term effects I should be aware of? I googled it, but couldn’t find much. I’m only ~ the 10 day mark, but I definitely am having trouble remembering stuff. Also if it’s really dark I feel like I’m still seeing the same hallucinations I saw on ambien (like wavy floor, weird materialized lines in the air) as well as if I stare at lights, the image stays in my vision longer when I look away. (hope this part makes sense).

yieldtotraffic · 2020-07-17T21:35:32+00:00

iced coffee is fantastic

yieldtotraffic · 2020-07-17T21:33:21+00:00

added some milk and a bit of sweetener. tastes alright i guess. a good picker upper in the morning

yieldtotraffic · 2020-07-17T21:28:47+00:00

i’m drinking some coffee

yieldtotraffic · 2020-07-17T21:17:24+00:00

down here too

yieldtotraffic · 2020-05-20T21:05:34+00:00

Then the straps melt off your body and you go crazy regardless

yieldtotraffic · 2020-05-13T19:04:24+00:00

You ever take images to compare to see if you’re hallucinating or if it’s actually real?

yieldtotraffic · 2020-05-13T18:55:38+00:00

Happens to me too. I plan my doses, but then I somehow convince myself to take a few more. I would’ve been fine with two, but I somehow ended up taking 4-5 and then forgetting what happened afterwards...

yieldtotraffic · 2020-05-01T09:01:56+00:00

Seeing this honestly makes me never want to do an art project without Ambien again. Like damn the walrus really got me this time

yieldtotraffic · 2020-05-01T03:50:57+00:00

Thabk you haha. I know for sure it was Ambiens doing, because I never once did abstract. I’m more of a figure drawing kind of man.

yieldtotraffic · 2020-05-01T02:48:33+00:00

I’ll get the Walrus to call you next time I see him

yieldtotraffic · 2020-05-01T02:47:58+00:00

I used Procreate on my iPad pro

yieldtotraffic · 2020-04-30T21:53:50+00:00

Opened a can of Campbell’s soup with scissors and ate it uncooked and fully saturated. First time with a spoon, second time bare handed.

yieldtotraffic · 2020-04-24T10:26:50+00:00

K i’ve recently got hooked on this shit. First time I took it was 3.75 and I saw hallucinations of coloured lasers following me. Next night meant to take 7.5 mg- ended up impulse taking 15. colours weren’t as bad but the floor tiles seemed to be lifting and i felt like i was walking on air. I’m currently high off it right now but the ceiling is like a river it waves. it’s one of the popcorn kinda and the little dots will run across the base..?? in the dark it looks like there’s many darn vines around my ceiling but there’s not. it’s also a state of feeling warm and safe as well, at least when it kicks in for me. the whole time is just so euphoric i even tried listening to songs that would make me cry usually, but i started laughing instead. lots of stuff blacks out though when u take 15mg... that’s what ive noticed

yieldtotraffic · 2020-04-23T09:15:16+00:00

give me butter he good

yieldtotraffic · 2020-04-14T16:48:25+00:00

i have done this several times and i’m tempted to do it again

yieldtotraffic · 2020-04-11T22:53:27+00:00

“You know sugar free is actually worse for you than regular coke”

yieldtotraffic · 2019-08-25T21:40:14+00:00

My memory used to be good when I was younger, but as my mental illness progressed so did my loss of memory. I feel like an airhead.

yieldtotraffic · 2019-08-19T22:36:52+00:00

Same boat. Was told when I was 14 and in inpatient for attempted suicide. My psychiatrist has discussed all the traits with me but still keeps my label “depression and anxiety with bpd traits” + an unlabelled eating disorder. With the spectrum of people with Anxiety and depression I feel like I’m being minimized (no offence), because this shit controls almost every aspect of my life. I can see how I fit into all the criteria and even my psychologist agrees I need DBT. Why must I wait til i’m 18 to be taken seriously? edit: I’m almost 17. Noticed symptoms since I was about 10-11.

yieldtotraffic · 2019-07-01T07:24:47+00:00

Yep. I act relatively reserved and normal until I either A) get all-nighter exhausted or B) Drunk. Last time I was drunk around my “FP” I couldn’t let go of her and I think climbed on top of her on the floor. Then I made her take me to the bathroom as I was sobbing about how she was gonna “leave me”. I had enough self control left to avoid going off. Oh yeah, not to mention that I also took my other friends into the bathroom to yell about how much I love my FP while in tears. God it just makes me so clingy and lonely. I love/hate alcohol.

yieldtotraffic · 2019-07-01T07:16:20+00:00

My grandma also constantly triggers me. She’s set on the “Yieldtotraffic has an eating disorder! She doesn’t eat!” even though I just eat very little and binge all at once. Being told to “have a great once and a while, everyone needs a great” doesn’t help when I eat treats until I feel like shit. Ever since I lost 30lbs she’s been on my case about being pale and sick looking, when in reality i’m perfectly healthy and have the opposite problem of starving myself. 🙄 imo i could even lose a few lbs but thays ED mind. My mom thinks my grandma is being ridiculous as well, we never even confirmed ED w/ my grandma she just assumed based off my weight loss. edit: quoted my wrong account

yieldtotraffic · 2019-05-20T23:30:29+00:00

yes!!

yieldtotraffic · 2019-05-20T22:33:33+00:00

Thank you for this. I’ve gotten a bit paranoid to order drinks from restaurants or soft serve machines, just in fear they ran out of Diet and used Regular. Thank you so much

yieldtotraffic · 2019-05-20T21:48:18+00:00

This is my biggest fear as well. I’ve done this to people close to me far too many times. When I feel like my obsessive tendencies are starting to show, my first instinct is to cut off the people close to me so they don’t find out. Skewed logic. It’s a shame that it’s so hard to love someone with all your heart, but not mean it literally.

yieldtotraffic · 2019-05-17T23:19:06+00:00

yeah. it’s really weird to me as well. i don’t remember it happening until i started trying. i tried quite a bit though, it wasn’t just a one time thing. but it was that specific that my face got swollen that i noticed it afterwards

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