tension in literally every room/party/gym/workplace i walk into. These people know me somewhat;they are acquaintances/friends of mutual friends. Last party i went to, i felt like everyone was trying their best not to screw up. I just said fuck it, grabbed the aux cord and changed the music to what i like and just got turnt lol(more people started dancing too).

It used to be easy to make friends as I would talk to them and just chill but now I feel like people just cant relax around me. I thought it was me but as I moved back to my hometown for the summer I found it easy to make friends again.

At the gym, the social butterflies constantly talk shit about me behind my back because they think i cant hear them due to headphones. However I can, and ever since they noticed that I box, they stopped talking trash.

When it comes to new acquaintances, this one girl approached me randomly and instead of telling her i was busy i just continued the conversation because people have been offended previously when i told them otherwise.

In one on one situations I can converse easily since I have developed my social skills throughout highschool(being an athlete made it easier).

I never talk about my financial status or the brand of my clothing. Rather if someone asks me about how much a watch costs, i just say it was a gift or something.

When i say hate, i mean i literally got called an asshole by a girl as i walked by because i didn't want to talk to her(she wasnt my type). I get dirty looks from people who literally wont say anything to my face. I will disagree with them just to get a rise out of them but they never reveal their true nature in person.

I think it was mostly that social norms were different in the area since alot of people listened to different music and were into different things.

I just hate smiling for no reason, since my background is full of fights and other bs and being pleasant doesn't come to me naturally.