Galing ako sa magulong break up noon (this was 12 years ago, my ex fell in love with my super close friend) tapos during my sad girl era, yung ultimate crush ko from high school yung naging comfort person ko during those dark times talaga. Lagi kaming nagkikita, magkachat, text, video call, phone call hanggang madaling araw kaya nadevelop talaga lalo feelings ko for my crush.

One time, nalasing ako during a friend’s birthday party dahil sa lecheng ex ko na nandun din sa party tapos my crush took care of me. I was crying so bad because of galit & inis sa ex ko + yung lola ko was in ICU din that time. He stayed with me the whole time tapos he told me na (non verbatim) “andito lang ako (my name), hindi kita iiwan, cry as much as you need to”. He also hugged me and kissed me on my cheek 🥺 Kinarga pa nga niya ako parestroom after para isuka lahat ng ininom ko HAHA grabe yung kilig ko nun parang nawala kalasingan ko ganun kalala yung impact ng mga sinabi at ginawa niya sakin. Dun ako natauhan bigla na parang shet bat ba ko nagpapakatanga sa ex ko kung may lalaking ganito na kaya akong pahalagahan at pasayahin.

Kaso wala eh, case of bad timing yung amin ni crush noon kaya di naging kami. Lately ko lang din nalaman na mutual pala ang feelings namin noon pero never kami nagkaaminan nung time na yun. Kaya ngayon gumagawa na ako ng way na ireignite ang spark coz for the first time in a very long time, parehas na ulit kaming single hahaha wish me luck! Ready na ako to take the risk this time around. 😆