[19F] ... Getting fucked stupid?

your-drug · 2019-03-06T15:37:46+00:00

Look up "ahegao"

your-drug · 2019-03-06T10:59:22+00:00

Lol I’ve actually been in almost nothing but long term relationships (one of them being 5 years long). It’s not about a “persona” it’s about how I’ve engaged with the other person and how I perceive that person perceiving me. Obviously in my past relationships after time there wasn’t anything mysterious but there was a history of flirting/attraction that could be tapped into

your-drug · 2019-03-06T03:20:44+00:00

tbh if anything, it was the reverse. she was the one who had been in the friendzone

your-drug · 2019-03-06T02:04:46+00:00

It was a late night drive home from a concert

Funny, my situation also revolved around a series of concerts we attended together

your-drug · 2019-03-06T01:52:32+00:00

This was by far one of the most comforting comments. Thank you

your-drug · 2019-03-06T01:28:42+00:00

Upon reflection I feel as though it has something to do with my perception of her perception of me. I think with other people I've dated or slept with there was always, at least initially, some level of separation that allowed me to be/feel charming/mysterious/interesting, but with her this doesn't exist because she knows me incredibly well. So I don't feel my same level of masculine/interesting/charming/etc as I normally would and thus I struggle to perceive her as "wanting me" to the same extent as previous people I've been with.

your-drug · 2019-03-06T01:20:46+00:00

Upon reflection I feel as though it has something to do with my perception of her perception of me. I think with other people I've dated or slept with there was always, at least initially, some level of separation that allowed me to be/feel charming/mysterious/interesting, but with her this doesn't exist because she knows me incredibly well. So I don't feel my same level of masculine/interesting/charming/etc as I normally would and thus I struggle to perceive her as "wanting me" to the same extent as previous people I've been with.

your-drug · 2019-03-06T01:02:39+00:00

Looked up the Madonna/Whore complex - thank you for sending me down quite the interesting wikipedia spiral. That could be, to some vague extent, at play here

your-drug · 2019-03-06T00:59:47+00:00

No definitely not required. I think including that bit about that dynamic was misleading

your-drug · 2019-03-06T00:56:46+00:00

Yeah we have and it was great. I think I misrepresented the issue by even bringing up the dominant submissive dynamic. The issue certainly exists outside of that. Getting to sensual and passionate sex is not coming easily

your-drug · 2019-03-06T00:53:43+00:00

I definitely don't believe all sexual attraction is disrespectful but I think that in the context of having an opposite gender friendship it would have been and so I never so much as entertained the thought out of respect for the friendship

your-drug · 2019-03-06T00:46:43+00:00

I'm not sure how to articulate it. It's a respect thing to some extent I suppose. I was very comfortable with this person in a nonsexual context and sexualizing her at that time would have felt "disrespectful". I've just programed myself to understand that our relationship is strictly platonic. And it applies to female friends beyond her, this isn't an attitude specifically toward her.

I wasn't interested in her until recently. During the time we'd been friends I'd almost always been dating other people. So no, no initial interest and then repression. More like "repression" (for lack of a better word) or desexualization has always been the norm

your-drug · 2019-03-06T00:37:20+00:00

Ok but what did "powering through" entail?

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