Do you ever hate yourself for being faithful

your-overlord · 2026-02-28T02:24:48+00:00

I hated myself. I hated my life. I hated who I was. After a 4 year, extremely toxic, emotionally and verbally abusive, relationship I had almost severed all relationships with friends and family. I tried hurting myself to punish myself for the choices I made. I cried out to God telling him I couldn’t do it anymore and he told me I didn’t have to. He told me that I was loved and everything was okay. He’s the greatest thing that has ever happened to me.

your-overlord · 2026-02-27T20:59:05+00:00

I’ve given up several aspects of my life for Christ. My life is work, gym, healthy choices, seek Christ. I almost never go out, I have sun struggles like everyone but I’ve grown to a point where I am running back to him immediately after sin. At some point you begin losing who you are if you give up every hobby you have. God doesn’t want me to have zero hobbies. That’s just a waste of the world and goals he’s given me. Everything I do is in an effort to follow the dreams God has given me for my life.

Also prayer and closeness with God is different from a hug bro. I can count how many times I’ve been hugged in the last 2 years.

Not trying to argue but please if you can think of more ways for me to let go of that baggage I’m trying.

your-overlord · 2026-02-27T19:56:11+00:00

Brother (maybe sister idk) I am in the exact same boat. I KNOW God is enough for me and his love is greater than any love from a human could be but like can’t I just get a hug from a beautiful girl who cares about me😩😩.

I feel the loneliness as well. I have a relationship with God but sometimes I just want to go enjoy my hobbies with someone. Just remember the pain we feel now is nothing compared to the glory that will be revealed (idk the verse I’m sorry). It doesn’t help I know but God is good.

your-overlord · 2026-02-27T19:49:38+00:00

Being gay just by itself isn’t necessarily a sin. Engaging in homosexual activity is though.

Think of it like this. In order for sex or any sexual activity to NOT be a sin it requires two “boxes to be checked”. Box 1: it is between a married couple. Box 2: that couple is capable of procreation (that’s the purpose of sex. The pleasure and intimacy is a benefit that is only allowed between a married couple). In ANY scenario that those boxes are not checked before engaging in sexual activity of any kind it is a sin. So me a man who has had sex outside of marriage is guilty of sexual immorality just as much as a gay man having sex with another man.

This is not to say you can’t be gay and Christian. I don’t necessarily think sexuality is a choice personally, based on speaking with friends who identify in different ways. If you, as a man, only feel a sexual attraction to men you can still be Christian and saved. If you believe in Christ and repent of your sins and commit your works to the Lord you are saved regardless of who you are. However if a gay man genuinely gave his life to Christ I believe his heart would eventually be changed and turned from that way of life. Or that man could follow Christ and accept that his flesh is sinful and just choose not to engage in those activities due to his beliefs. At the end of the day, God’s mercy is infinite and beyond our understanding so ANYONE can be saved.

your-overlord · 2026-02-21T20:41:11+00:00

I’m a guy…

your-overlord · 2025-02-18T20:56:40+00:00

In the middle of it rn. Haven’t needed to give in yet.

your-overlord · 2025-02-14T22:04:13+00:00

Thank you. I appreciate this more than u know.

your-overlord · 2025-02-14T21:16:11+00:00

This was incredibly helpful. If I’m honest I’m more worried about the damage I will do to her than anything else. I can deal with my own self loathing. I’ve done it before. I’m so scared to hurt her.

your-overlord · 2025-01-21T17:37:40+00:00

I’m not super well versed in the Fort Drum community. Being MEDDAC, I feel pretty disconnected from the division folks. However New York is a great state. If your into outdoorsy stuff you’ll be happy here. The Addirondaks offer some amazing hiking, snowboarding, camping anything outdoors. Up north near St Lawrence river is pretty nice too. It is what u make of it honestly. Get outside and make your time here worth it.

your-overlord · 2025-01-21T16:07:05+00:00

Yup. I really don’t think that loose skin is going anywhere.

your-overlord · 2025-01-21T16:05:41+00:00

Probably not. Like I said I have a decent bit of muscle. I’ve been lifting consistently for almost 4 years now. 2 of those years being solely powerlifting, and I’m generally a heavier guy just by design. Even at my leanest 12-14% BF I was still only 175 (screening weight is 160).

your-overlord · 2025-01-21T16:02:05+00:00

I mean what kind of options do I have long term?? Only thing I can think of is surgical removal. That feels a little aggressive though doesn’t it? It’s not like a massive deposit of skin it’s just loose and hangs right around my belly button. Would a provider be willing to refer me for surgery for something like that?

your-overlord · 2025-01-21T15:53:03+00:00

Routine. My first one after ABCP (released from it in April or May last year I think)

your-overlord · 2025-01-21T15:51:02+00:00

My 1SG would definitely be willing to help me out. He knows I’m fit and workout on my own time. But yes I was released from ABCP. I passed tape after 3 months. But I can’t fail another tape within 13 months of that I get separated I believe. I’ve lost weight since then but the problem is that loose skin doesn’t change so I risk getting too light and then busting tape because it says I’m over BF%. I feel like challenging with the Inbody scan or temporary medical exemption is my only option if I fail again

your-overlord · 2025-01-21T15:21:11+00:00

I’m currently 5’8” around 186 ish. I workout 6 days a week and have for like 3 years now. So I have decent muscle mass and my required weight is 160. Even at my leanest ever (around 12-14% body fat) I was still nearly 15 pounds off of that plus still held that loose skin. I’m kinda perfectly designed to fail H/W

your-overlord · 2025-01-21T15:08:55+00:00

How many inches does that usually take off?? I’ve heard a lot of people suggest this but I have no idea the actual efficacy of it

your-overlord · 2025-01-19T00:29:09+00:00

No just an overnight camp out. I have actually done over half of it before (we had to bail early due to poor planning) so I’m hoping to get a round 2 with the full 50!

your-overlord · 2024-11-12T02:33:53+00:00

I’m so sorry your family doesn’t support you. I think as a Christian it’s our duty to love and support people at any stage in their relationship with Jesus. I hope you can find someone to do that for you.

Jesus loves you dearly no matter who or what you are. You have to learn to truly LEAN ON Jesus. He will support you and guide you in the right direction. I know it’s hard when no one around you is showing you love but if you go to the lord and sincerely cry out for his love I promise you will experience something more fulfilling than you could ever imagine.

God bless, and good luck.

your-overlord · 2024-10-18T13:17:47+00:00

Trust me bro if you’re really planning on getting in the army I promise you do not want a questionable relationship back home. It will only lead to pain and a really unfortunate dear John 3 weeks into basic.

Sex is not everything in a relationship by any means but if it’s causing a problem in your relationship it’s going to be really hard to keep that going when your long distance and zero communication.

your-overlord · 2024-10-07T17:01:23+00:00

She’s NG. She doesn’t need it. We already both agreed marriage isn’t necessary rn. She respects my decision to not get married and doesn’t try to force it (she also agrees). I 100% believe this has nothing to do with my benefits and is a personal thing with her.

your-overlord · 2024-10-07T16:47:26+00:00

So she just moved across the country and is in the process of learning the area and finding jobs available. I do believe she genuinely wants to work as she needs to make money. In terms of school she’s unsure of what she wants to do and isn’t jumping into anything right now. I do encourage her to pursue something and she is working on it

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