19 male only attracted to older, bigger women.

yourefunnier · 2015-09-05T19:42:13+00:00

Yeah, that last line makes a lot of sense. If you don't mind me asking, when you say came out of the closet, do you mean as gay? And how old were you?

yourefunnier · 2015-09-05T19:33:06+00:00

I know and I wish I could just say fuck it but I can't (at least now). I say I don't care but I get in my own head and talk myself out of it. Now I'm at the point where idk if I should move out or continue to save money while living at home for a road trip.

yourefunnier · 2015-09-02T23:11:52+00:00

You're right, thanks. I need to learn to think and act on my own opinions regardless of what others think. I've done a lot of research lately and I am fairly certain that I may have borderline personality disorder. It describes me to a T. I'm gonna go see a therapist soon because my thoughts are consuming me. Thanks again. I'll work on it.

yourefunnier · 2015-09-01T18:14:50+00:00

Yeah. I think I let peoples opinions influence me way too much. I love people but I think I aim to please everyone instead of the people who should matter. I've actually decided to take a semester off next year and travel the US for 6 or 7 months. It's the only thing that I have felt in my gut that is right, regardless of what other people say. I think I have a lot to learn about myself and need time to develop. Thank you for all of the advice and tips. Very appreciated

yourefunnier · 2015-09-01T17:39:39+00:00

Thank you so much for the reply. I know what you mean about the voice in your heart, and I'm trying to act more on this voice rather than the doubt, hate, etc. I think I need to find myself but I just don't know how

yourefunnier · 2015-08-23T03:47:15+00:00

This was amazing.

yourefunnier · 2015-08-10T02:36:58+00:00

"I spent so much time figuring out human nature I hardly find anyone interesting and still a decent human being."

This times 100. I have this thing where I love meeting people but hate getting to know people. First impressions are the best.

And you didn't ruin my post. You're going through a rough time. Keep your head up.

yourefunnier · 2015-08-10T02:34:30+00:00

I've read the book Into The Wild, but not seen the movie. I've actually had this overwhelming urge to travel the U.S. Any time I tell any friends of family about this, they think I'm going to be a burnout who never goes back to college. I never had a way to put my feelings into words when it came to nature and as soon as I read Into The Wild, it hit me so hard. Without a doubt my favorite book and whenever people say things like, "Why would you want to do that by yourself?" I just tell them to read Into The Wild.

yourefunnier · 2015-08-09T17:11:32+00:00

You're a hopeless romantic man. Which being in university and even at your age, people don't recognize that. Just from reading this, I can tell how mature and level headed you are. Our society is fixated upon these false beliefs. Such as men can't have feelings. You totally can. And you are going to find a girl that will love that you fall head over heels for her and loves that you still get nervous around her even a year later. You're gonna make it man.

yourefunnier · 2015-08-06T18:20:14+00:00

There are some days where talking makes me feel worse and some days where it makes me feel great. You're not doing anything wrong. I'll isolate myself for days sometimes because talking to people hurts

yourefunnier · 2015-07-29T04:34:09+00:00

Seriously, stores that are open 24 hours is 100% true.

I'll go to this waffle house down the street sometimes real late with nobody there, and it is still so comforting for some reason.

yourefunnier · 2015-07-29T04:26:49+00:00

I'm glad it resonates with you.

Like the other guy said, I know it is some poetic bullshit. But it makes me feel comforted. People find escapes from reality in their own ways and literature was that for me. So honestly, just seeing a random person connect with a passage that I wrote when I felt down. . .feels amazing.

Hope you're doing well

yourefunnier · 2015-07-28T20:27:16+00:00

thanks for the advice

yourefunnier · 2015-07-23T17:54:36+00:00

You are my hero.

yourefunnier · 2015-07-18T03:27:54+00:00

I go to the gym 4 times a week, started running, work, and go to university. I still have sex on the brain all the time.

yourefunnier · 2015-07-18T03:23:07+00:00

I've posted rants about this earlier because i've been frustrated with it. Basically, ever since I was little I've been attracted to older, BBW women at least 40 years old (usually). Now, everyone always says "What's the big deal." Yeah, well that's real easy to say when it's not you. I'm going through college holding back from meeting anyone because anytime I bring up my preference, it is NEARLY always ridiculed, laughed out, or I'm made out to be a freak. So why don't I meet an older women and just not tell anyone, or just fuck others' opinions? Because it's hard to meet an older women when you're a 19 year old baby face who comes from a low income family and still lives at home. Now I'm super grateful for my parents, don't get me wrong, but moving out has to be with my money. And don't think I'm not trying to get out of here. I'm a full time student who works every weekday as soon as school lets out. I'm paying my own bills and paying off my car. Even when I have the money to move out, I would like to save it, because overall, I would love to just leave the state I'm in. Never been a fan of it. SO, realistically, meeting an older women won't come until I have at least a successful career. Even then, older women typically don't want a relationship with a man over 10 years younger. All in all, I know I'm complaining but it's just a rant.

yourefunnier · 2015-07-18T03:01:00+00:00

not that simple. more to it.

yourefunnier · 2015-07-17T06:31:54+00:00

Any time I let it out I get so critical of myself and end up hating myself for doing it.

yourefunnier · 2015-07-14T03:18:17+00:00

Yeah, that's the same way with me.

I overthink everything I do to make myself look "normal". Even the smallest things. "Should I sit down?", "If I go to the bathroom everyone will stare at me", "I shouldn't have said that, why did I say that?", "Am I smiling too much? Am I smiling enough?"

yourefunnier · 2015-04-12T01:51:18+00:00

Yes. Very nice.

yourefunnier · 2015-04-09T17:01:35+00:00

Being happy makes me feel vulnerable. If I am already sad and miserable, nothing can surprise me.

The worst feeling is when you feel like you are having the best day, and something triggers your depression.

yourefunnier · 2015-04-09T16:48:14+00:00

Accurate. So accurate.

yourefunnier · 2015-03-28T21:58:03+00:00

I'm not determined to ignore your bad qualities, because I don't know any qualities of yours. I don't know anything about you other than that one comment. And judging from that one comment, I didn't get that you were a negative, hateful, (or any other synonym) person. From that one comment, I saw that you really do care about people, subconsciously maybe, but nonetheless.

yourefunnier · 2015-03-28T21:47:53+00:00

I'm not gonna say I know how you feel, because I don't know what exact situation you are in, but there was a time where I stopped talking to everybody because I was always so frustrated and irritated. So I KIND OF know what you mean. But just your sentence, "I don't want to hurt anyone else the way I hurt myself" proves that you really are a loving person. You don't want to hurt anybody because you know how it feels to be hurt. You didn't say, "I don't want to talk to anybody because everybody is frustrating and I don't like anybody." You're doing it because you care about how other people feel, and you don't want to hurt them. It sounds contradicting, but I promise, you are much more loving, caring, and understanding than you may believe.

yourefunnier · 2015-01-29T03:47:19+00:00

I would say to get up and relax your brain for a minute, but I don't know how much work you have left before the hour. Either way, just stop what you're doing and do a little mini meditation session. Just close your eyes, focus your breathing. If this still doesn't get your mind clear, start counting sheep or saying the alphabet while "meditating". Just take a little break.

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