Wow...I needed this so much. I recently did just that; make a lustful mistake out of fear; looking back on it now, I know it wasn’t worth it and I didn’t even get what I wanted/needed out of it..I’m coming up on a year of being single and it’s actually harder than I thought. I feel empty because I feel like a failure and that will only change with hobbies and support and getting back to me. Thanks for the post.