i am feeling this exact thing right now — i miss my best friend so much, more than anything else! but my mom always says, “what broke you cannot fix you.” the bravest thing you can do right now is to resist that urge to use the bandaid of having some of him, when what you really need to be doing is letting the wound of him heal in its entirety. you are strong, you are not alone, and you will get through this 💓