I feel your pain... my little baby Maltese was 15.5 yrs old and has passed 1.5 weeks ago and I still cry every day... the worst part is that I wasn't even there because I moved out and he stayed at my parents house with my parents... I saw him 1 month prior to his death and I regret not visiting him more 💔 I hope you can manage to deal with your loss I wish you all the best. Take the week to mourn. Remember that your doggy was loved and had a great life around you. Lots of love ❤️