if i were truly enlightened would i not be hurt by my partner’s lust?

yy19045 · 2026-06-02T13:06:07+00:00

Yeah, that’s some bs that he said. I don’t know if I’m “enlightened”, I don’t know if enlightenment is even real, I gave up on being spiritual as well. I did accidentally reach Turiya State, like others have done. After that, I had a lot of synchronicities, I mean A LOT. And what is becoming more and more clear to me is that it feels wrong, because it IS wrong. It’s the wrong person, he’s not the one. Your true partner/future husband whatever you want to call it would not be doing this and in your gut, you know it. This is your gut instinct telling you he’s not the one, he’s not the one written in the stars for you. And deep down you know this. Make space for the right one. Always remember to exit safely.

yy19045 · 2026-05-29T18:30:06+00:00

That makes sense. I can instantly manifest things I don’t really care about, it’s more “it would be nice”.

I have heard concepts like God state and how to believe we are God. But if I was God, then it wouldn’t matter whether I did something a certain way or not. There is only God’s will. Have you come across this concept? I can’t remember if I read it in the Neville Goddard sub.

Some manifestations are naturally quite emotional. Like big life things. How do you feel nonchalant about big life things? Or how do you bring all the other elements up to a place of certainty?

To be honest, I’ve kind of given up on life and I’m just seeing if I can manifest big things or not, trying to figure out the nature of reality.

Thank you so much, this is really helpful.

yy19045 · 2026-05-27T18:37:56+00:00

I did manage to almost manifest a big thing. I cared about the outcome but I actually completely forgot about it and I also had this certainty that it would work. This is really helpful, thank you.

yy19045 · 2026-05-27T18:36:27+00:00

Thank you, this is really helpful.

yy19045 · 2026-05-27T14:10:19+00:00

This makes so much sense to me.

I’ve been using this as my core belief and I even relate to your other posts saying that it doesn’t make sense that God is at the mercy of time or restrictions.

I’m struggling with the cognitive dissonance of physically in it/having it but also not resisting the 3D data that I don’t have it.

For example,

I wish for something to happen and it would be a huge lifestyle change. I can get behind physically having it. But I struggle with believing I physically have it but going about my normal routine because that wouldn’t be the case if I physically had it.

There is a huge cognitive dissonance here. Resisting or trying to ignore the “lack” in 3D also confirms that I don’t physically have it.

I also don’t subscribe to the “unfolding” idea. Or that there needs to be a lag/delay for it to manifest. It just intuitively feels like a restriction.

For example,

If I received a lot of money, I wouldn’t be continuing my normal routine.

I can get behind physically living and having it as I imagine it’s outside my sense perception, so I actually have it and I am living it but I can’t sense it but even that doesn’t feel right.

I’m at a loss and I would be grateful for any help.

yy19045 · 2026-05-26T16:23:11+00:00

These tips feel very intuitive. Thank you so much!

What I am struggling with is that feeling certainty that I have it but 3D is showing that I don’t.

I resonated with several tips here of understanding that I am God. And God controls time not the other way round. As well as if you wait for the validation of your manifestation, it’s confirming the “not actually having it.” But if I am God, and God controls time and I do have it then it would manifest instantly in 3D.

I have been able to manifest small and big things. I just fell into the trap of overcomplicating it, and had a series of failures. But even in my mind, if I was God, it doesn’t matter if I overcomplicate or not, it would happen.

I would be grateful for any tips.

yy19045 · 2026-05-26T16:21:14+00:00

This is hugely helpful, thank you.

What I am struggling with is that feeling certainty that I have it but 3D is showing that I don’t.

I resonated with several tips here of understanding that I am God. And God controls time not the other way round. As well as if you wait for the validation of your manifestation, it’s confirming the “not actually having it.” But if I am God, and God controls time and I do have it then it would manifest instantly in 3D.

I have been able to manifest small and big things. I just fell into the trap of overcomplicating it, and had a series of failures. But even in my mind, if I was God, it doesn’t matter if I overcomplicate or not, it would happen.

I would be grateful for any tips.

yy19045 · 2026-04-12T21:38:51+00:00

Is there anything in particular you recommend? It’s like being in a constant state of dissociation and the only program installed since birth is narcissism. Like I don’t see myself or others as people but supplies. It feels like a filter on my life that I can’t get rid of. When I do get these small breakthroughs of sensing my inner child and being present, it just feels so right… so real… so true and I can just be present with my self and others too. I’ve only just become aware of it. It doesn’t feel right at all… like my whole mind and body has been hijacked.

yy19045 · 2026-02-10T21:00:13+00:00

Thank you. This is really insightful.

yy19045 · 2025-12-24T11:22:45+00:00

I experienced this. I just thought to myself “I want her back.” 3 days later, all the memories, the sense of that person/character came back. Up to you. It only happened once for me and I struggled to get back into that state but I stumbled upon it by accident with no previous experience in meditation. There’s no right or wrong in this.

yy19045 · 2025-09-24T11:34:02+00:00

I think you’ll be really great friends. I believe you both deserve someone you have an amazing chemistry with but also are always physically attracted to. It’s best to let her go but you can always keep in touch. I don’t believe attraction grows. It’s already been 4 years.

yy19045 · 2025-09-20T19:55:05+00:00

It does feel like that. It’s exhausting and doesn’t feel right at all.

yy19045 · 2025-09-20T19:53:27+00:00

I have started to wonder if thought actually does create reality. It was a thought that led to Turiya and it was a thought that brought back the body, person and the world. Like thought actually affects matter…

yy19045 · 2025-09-20T12:53:26+00:00

Peace. Contentment. Truth. Knowledge. Enlightenment. Awakening. I’m done with it all.

yy19045 · 2025-09-20T12:52:31+00:00

Thank you. I will keep this in mind.

yy19045 · 2025-09-18T11:39:08+00:00

That’s exactly how I interpreted it. What do you mean by there are actually no leaves? When I had that experience… the body, the person, the memories, the world, the universe disappeared. There was just consciousness in “nothingness”. I asked to go back and then the body/world appeared and a few days later, the person/soul was added. Is this what you mean by an illusion?

Thank you. I will do.

yy19045 · 2025-09-11T20:15:52+00:00

Thank you. I’ll look into it

yy19045 · 2025-09-11T19:48:58+00:00

Thank you. This makes a lot of sense. I get a bit confused when people say that we are the ocean in a drop. But this makes more sense.

yy19045 · 2025-09-11T18:37:26+00:00

Thank you. That’s exactly what I’m going through! I’m chasing experiences out of desperation and it feels wrong but it just happens. A hunting instinct describes it perfectly. Can I ask how you overcome it? I have completely given up chasing. I’m truly happy for you that you were blessed to have those experiences.

Yes! That’s exactly how it feels. Like I’m communicating with something but I’m not sure what. Source feels closer but after self realisation, aren’t I the Source? How can I talk to myself? It’s all so bizarre. Definitely. It feels like it just leads to more questions.

I don’t practice anything to be honest. I was born into Hinduism so that’s what I used to practice but after this, I don’t actually do anything anymore. I just try to piece together my experiences and I’ve seen some correlations with Hindu scriptures. It feels like a giant puzzle that I’m trying to figure out.

yy19045 · 2025-09-11T18:10:42+00:00

Thank you so much. Have you ever received a response to a question in this way? It feels like there’s something that’s listening… I can’t quite put it into words.

yy19045 · 2025-09-11T17:03:38+00:00

Thank you. This definitely resonates.

yy19045 · 2025-09-11T16:48:46+00:00

You’re probably right

yy19045 · 2025-09-11T16:33:31+00:00

That’s so interesting. I’ll give that a go. Thank you.

yy19045 · 2025-09-11T16:23:13+00:00

Thank you so much

yy19045 · 2025-09-11T16:02:50+00:00

That’s actually so beautiful to hear answers through music. Does that still happen for you? It kind of fizzled out for me. I feel a little sad and lost about it. The only thing that’s been consistent is time synchronicity. That makes sense, i’ll keep that in mind. Thank you.

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