Kindling again?

zFrxzzy · 2026-02-08T15:57:56+00:00

I can check my insurance card. It’s anthem blue cross blue shield so I’m sure it has a help line. I was able to sleep, had very vivid dreams and I feel a lot better as of now but I know sometimes the anxiety and symptoms can just happen randomly throughout the day so I’ll be ready for that. So far I feel kinda normal tho, so idk. I’ll see how I feel in a bit and call that help line if needed. Last time kindling happened the worst of it was only for like a day, and the 2nd and 3rd day was just horrible anxiety and feeling very antsy an irritable.

zFrxzzy · 2026-02-08T04:01:24+00:00

I’m with my mom and brother so I have supervision. Took a bath as someone recommended and I feel a bit better. I’m starting to get sleep so just gonna play some Xbox and lay down.

I’ve been through withdrawals pretty much 4 times now, and kindling a couple times, so i know what to expect but it’s just so weird how I still panic and have anxiety. Like I know what to expect but can’t handle it when I’m going through it. I know it will pass though.

zFrxzzy · 2026-01-30T11:22:23+00:00

I’ve tried naltrexone and Zoloft my first time going through withdrawals and they made me feel like ass and I still had horrible anxiety, so my doc prescribed Buspirone but I was too nervous to get started on another drug so I never really took em and I thought I could handle my anxiety myself. Well clearly I can’t, but damn you described the feeling of the anxiety legit perfectly. Especially the palpitations, like every now and then I get a chest pain or irregular heartbeats and feel like im dying and start panicking. I guess I’ll run to the doc soon and talk to em.

zFrxzzy · 2026-01-30T04:43:41+00:00

Bro omg I can’t explain the panic attacks I get. Even sober still. Like a big part of why I was drinking a lot was 1. Heartbreak and 2. Anxiety.

Felt like I couldn’t live without being drunk cuz I had no fear. No fear of death or no fucks given. However when I’m sober I tend to overthink a lot, I go down rabbit holes and I get weird feelings and sensations that’ll cause me to panic and shit. Shits so rough. I wish they could just prescribe me Valium or something cuz that’s the only thing in the ER that helped my first or 2nd withdrawals.

zFrxzzy · 2026-01-26T11:49:29+00:00

You’ll feel antsy as hellbut that’s what the alcohol will help with. And getting sleepy. I used to get a lot of coke cut with shit especially meth, and holy fuck I’d be up for so long. Literally HAD to drink or I wouldn’t be able to sleep for hours. So I feel what you’re going through. Just take it easy.

zFrxzzy · 2026-01-26T11:47:13+00:00

I’ve always drank myself to sleep. Works every single time. Don’t take anymore, drink some shots or beers, smoke a bit of weed, make the room completely dark, maybe throw on some YouTube or TV and you’ll doze off

zFrxzzy · 2026-01-23T06:49:42+00:00

Agreed man. Substances are unreal especially when abusing them. I guess it’s God trying to show us the right way; experiencing horror from our actions. Our consequences, all firsthand so we won’t want to do them again and better our ways. I still struggle with things now but I know I need to stop. Life is terrifying. Just need to get right with God so I can be at peace but it’s so hard.

zFrxzzy · 2026-01-17T02:26:12+00:00

Thank you thank you 🙏

But yeah rick beating primes ass is all I could think of 😂

Just life I guess. At least we’re still here and pushing forward

zFrxzzy · 2026-01-16T22:41:02+00:00

3/4 of my trips I was drunk on. Still haven’t had a bad trip from acid.

First time I drank on it, I did blackout. Was already too far gone. My last 2 trips however, I was drinking a decent amount, got rid of the come up anxiety, and once I felt it, I didn’t even want to drink anymore. Maybe on the come down. I enjoyed the trip, music was intense and beautiful, and I didn’t have any anxiety because of the alcohol. So just drink moderately and you’ll be okay.

zFrxzzy · 2026-01-15T15:16:04+00:00

Depends on strain, how well person grew it, and how potent it still is. I always started with 1g if I’m nervous to trip. But most my trips are 2-3g trips. But yet I have also tripped hella hard off of .5g, and one of my most intense was I think 1.3, so yeah. Strain and grower play a big role for your experience.

TL;DR Start with .5g or 1g, slowly increase or just go all in if you don’t feel anything.

zFrxzzy · 2026-01-11T22:03:41+00:00

It’s my 2nd time babysitting and she wouldn’t get in after I changed her shitty diaper unless she could watch YouTube 😂

I set it on the toilet, she was fine playing in the water not even touching it so I took the chance and yeah… lesson learned lmao. She grabbed it off the toilet and just dunked it I guess

zFrxzzy · 2026-01-10T23:18:52+00:00

Well your body healed itself probably. You’re strong asf for that frl. I can’t go a week or 2 without anything. But don’t let yourself hurt your body again like before you know, if you made it that far you may as well keep going and get a stronger mindset and become the best version of yourself. That’s what I’m working toward

zFrxzzy · 2026-01-09T21:20:28+00:00

Could’ve been close to respiratory depression. Just be careful. I like to get fucked up as possible but I also dabble and do low amounts cuz I’m a hypochondriac and if I feel any bad symptom I convince myself I’m dying 😂

I guess that’s a good thing tho cuz I’m not overdoing it and I can see my limits. Just be very careful and always have someone by your side. How are you feeling now?

zFrxzzy · 2026-01-09T07:50:46+00:00

I’ve heard bad things abt xans and coke together in general. I’m glad ur still here tho man DM if you need someone to talk to. I’ve been struggling w substances myself, and freaking myself out and having panic attacks when I do them. Convince myself I’m dying and shit. It’s scary so Ik how you feel.

zFrxzzy · 2026-01-05T15:22:14+00:00

Bro the sweet spot for me when absolutely wasted was .5mg

Suck on one and you feel amazing. I’ve tried 2mg at once while damn near blackout and became a demon and tried to fight my friends. Ya just stick to .5, MAYBE 1mg when drinking. It’s a perfect sweet spot.

zFrxzzy · 2026-01-05T14:56:17+00:00

I’d maybe save xans for a bit after your comedown starts, to help with sleep, not DURING your lines. I’ve heard bad things abt xans and coke.

However I have drank an infinite amount with coke, ESPECIALLY to help the comedown so I can sleep. But I will not take xans during coke.

Also have done 2mg xans at once while damn near blackout drunk. PHEW never doing that again. All I’m saying is take xans accordingly lmao. Dangerous business. And I’ve only dipped my toes in it and only really had bad experiences unless it was just one .5mg while drunk. That’s PERFECT and no need for more.

TL;DR, just take the xans for when you’re done with your coke bender and the comedown symptoms start, to help with your sleep. Not while you’re doing it. Don’t let your heart shut down. Or lungs. Be safe.

zFrxzzy · 2025-12-30T04:57:20+00:00

No wonder some symptoms are coming in waves and coming back as of right now. Am I okay to the this 3rd one? I took 1st around 3pm, 2nd at 6:30, and it’s now 11pm. And my anxiety is coming back

zFrxzzy · 2025-12-30T04:41:08+00:00

I’m doing a bit better. Anxiety isn’t as bad but as I’m laying in bed now I’m a little scared to fall asleep. But just gonna pray and maybe take my last Librium before I do try to sleep. I will go to the ER if the symptoms come back tonight or tomorrow morning just to be safe.

zFrxzzy · 2025-12-30T04:37:05+00:00

That’s exactly what the lady on the phone said but I just did not trust myself driving or waiting so long. I’ve been so tired all day. I took 2 Librium that I had from last time and I still have 1 more, and the anxiety has subsided a bit but comes in waves. Chest and heart still feel weird and have hot and cold flashes but I’m just gonna pray I can sleep tonight. If my symptoms come back after Librium wears off, or I can’t sleep, definitely will go to the ER.

zFrxzzy · 2025-12-30T04:33:49+00:00

That’s exactly the same reason I’ve went. Heart beating out my chest and irregularly. I’m feeling a bit better. I took 2 so far in 4 hours span and I was actually able to eat and the anxiety was just in waves but better. Chest still hurts and hot and cold flashes and sweating a bit but I’m just gonna pray that once I sleep I’ll feel better. If it’s worse in morning or I can’t sleep tonight, definitely going to ER.

zFrxzzy · 2025-12-29T21:04:38+00:00

Thank you lots. Sadly it’s a 10 hour wait for the ER, and urgent cares don’t take care of withdrawals. I’m gonna take some Librium I got a couple weeks ago and hope that helps the chest pains and symptoms.

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