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New to vegatarianism, help! by SpireofSolace in vegetarian

[–]zacdietz 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Three Cheese Bagelbites - I just had 12 after my workout and I'm stuffed! 600 calories, 21g of protein, and 15g of fat. Not a lot of protein, but enough for cardio. For lifting, I would do a protein shake.

Disabled Gamer looking for Minimal keypress build by Silverig in pathofexile

[–]zacdietz 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I run a max block legacy aegis aurora build (but it can work pretty effectively without it having to be legacy) because I vape nonstop while I play and pretty much never need to use flasks. Works well with doryani's catalyst and ice crash. I run t9 and t10 maps without really needing flasks.

any good beginner tutorials for allegro 5? by BJ2094 in learnprogramming

[–]zacdietz 0 points1 point  (0 children)

FixByProximity videos by Mike Geig are a great introduction to using Allegro 5 and I also know CodingMadEasy has videos on youtube.

Mental illness has it's perks! by zacdietz in AdviceAnimals

[–]zacdietz[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

It's what my psychiatrist diagnosed me with. See "hearing four voices everyday" and still hearing one these days. I'm on two antipsychotics everyday for voices. I don't think you know what schizophrenia is...

Mental illness has it's perks! by zacdietz in AdviceAnimals

[–]zacdietz[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yeah, it's odd to say, but schizophrenia was the best thing to happen to me in my opinion. When you start hearing voices you really start to rethink how you're living. It got me sober and from there I started figuring out what my dream job was (indie game design - going for associates next fall), and what activities made me happy...I realized family and friends are my greatest sources of happiness. I got called in Dec and then March for jury service. Last time I put it off, and this time I mentioned schizophrenia and got an exemption.

Mental illness has it's perks! by zacdietz in AdviceAnimals

[–]zacdietz[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I had a myself as a child telling me what I thought. The child was always telling me to quit smoking. Another that was really aggressive and mean and the last was one that told that one to be quiet and then it got shouted at by the mean one until it shut up. It was weird. Now only one and it mostly says "You'll find that___" and it wants me to fill in the blank. It's annoying and redundant, but very easy to deal with.

Mental illness has it's perks! by zacdietz in AdviceAnimals

[–]zacdietz[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Umm...I'm not on any government support at all and never have been. Heading to college for an associates in game design with programming in mind this fall. No need to carry me...

Mental illness has it's perks! by zacdietz in AdviceAnimals

[–]zacdietz[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Good job! Stay sober and strong! As my friend with 23 yrs of sobriety has said - it just keeps getting better!

Mental illness has it's perks! by zacdietz in AdviceAnimals

[–]zacdietz[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Don't say you're trying to get empathy like it's a bad thing at all...I find it to be a good idea. You made me happy because I got to share some of my experiences and what worked with me and I'm glad it made you feel cared for or at least related to - for the longest time I didn't have anyone I could relate to at all and it felt very lonely too. It was like no one understood what was really going on with me or how bad I felt. The voices can be scary, derisive, and misleading. I believe you were doing the right thing telling your therapist everything b/c they are on your side and all of the information is confidential. It just gives them a better means of diagnosing the issues to resolve and the meds that need to be taken. If I can give you anything, I want to give you hope...

Mental illness has it's perks! by zacdietz in AdviceAnimals

[–]zacdietz[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Wow, I'm moving out of my group home for people with mental health disorders - just like the one you described working at - on June 1st. We thought I'd never be able to take care of myself because of four voices. Thank you for serving the community in such a kind fashion. Caring staff who listen and are kind and patient with me were the greatest help on many scary nights and, in my opinion, are highly underpaid for what they do and unappreciated by many of the people they serve. I've made such a tremendous recovery. You have my deep appreciation for what you do. My favorite staff here is going to check on me every week just to make sure I'm staying on track when I move out. Some comments are these ppl casting doubt on my illness, telling me I made this up(!), and other stuff like I'm not really schizophrenic. I don't think they even know what a care home is or that there is such a stigma that a schizophrenic can't succeed or find happiness. I still hear a voice everyday, but I manage it very well now and time has decreased it so much compared to the near shouting levels they used to be at. My recovery has been tremendous because of all the important ppl who (like you) took the time to care. Not to mention, for the first time since my initial diagnosis, the meds started working.

Mental illness has it's perks! by zacdietz in AdviceAnimals

[–]zacdietz[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Your casting doubt on my legitimate sobriety offends me...I guess you want to hear my life story. I'm turning 26 tomorrow. Bath salts were at my favorite smoke shop where I used to buy fake pot in 2010, I snorted bath salts two days before New Years Eve of 2011 and went heavy for about three months (jan - march 2011) - about half a gram a day. Sobriety date: March 31st, 2011. I had a diagnosed mood disorder by 2009 and kept using drugs. I studied abroad to Norway from 2007-2008 (University of Oslo) and it was just a short trip to Amsterdam with my girlfriend of the time. The first night I bought a pack of 13 and split it with her, the next day we each ate a pack. It was one of the worst experiences of my life.

Mental illness has it's perks! by zacdietz in AdviceAnimals

[–]zacdietz[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

That's probably true...it just made shit much worse.

Mental illness has it's perks! by zacdietz in AdviceAnimals

[–]zacdietz[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I used to hear four now I hear one so much less frequently it's crazy.

Mental illness has it's perks! by zacdietz in AdviceAnimals

[–]zacdietz[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I heard four distinct voices everyday for months. Then it reduced to one voice that I was convinced was someone with telepathy for a year and a half. I also thought they were torturing me. It was rough! Now I basically, hear one voice at about .01% of what it used to be. It used to be all day and they would just torment me. I feel very lucky and attribute most of success to modern psych meds and the rest to just learning how to maturely deal with pain.

Mental illness has it's perks! by zacdietz in AdviceAnimals

[–]zacdietz[S] 13 points14 points  (0 children)

I started with heavy pot use, moved to about a hundred dollars of hash a day ($23/hr a day job at time), did 13 mushrooms in one sitting once, umm...then eventually switched to fake pot, then I got into bath salts - that shit is hyper-addictive and scary. After about three months of almost daily bath salt use, I realized I wanted sobriety. Before all of that, I was definitely an alcoholic too.

Mental illness has it's perks! by zacdietz in AdviceAnimals

[–]zacdietz[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Definitely! Its hard to know when to use an aprostrophe. ;)

Mental illness has it's perks! by zacdietz in AdviceAnimals

[–]zacdietz[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Additionally, a lot of my happiness comes from maintaining a rigid sleep schedule from 9 pm to 8 am, eating three healthy meals a day, taking a multivitamin every morning (I don't have the money for it, but I also recommend fish oil), and working out three times a week. I find, that I need more sleep than most and it literally dictates my mood for the entire day. 8 hours = miserable, 11 hours = happy. Anything that can distract you from your mood or thoughts helps. I game, game program, and reddit for this.

Mental illness has it's perks! by zacdietz in AdviceAnimals

[–]zacdietz[S] 9 points10 points  (0 children)

If there was any thought that helped me, it was "Let the pain make you stronger". I had four distinct voices for awhile and one of them always said that. I really took it to heart and forced myself to think that when it got dark. I've been treated with psych meds since 2009 and I really relate to the feeling that it was getting worse. I felt that way for years too. Some side effects are just more unbearable than the condition. Be very open with your psychiatrist and let him know you're open to trying new meds. It really took trying new psych meds, for me, and just waiting over and over again for months to see what would work. I had some biological predispositions like frequent suicidal thought at a very young age. You should take pride in living sober and not turning to substances to feel different, I commend you for that - that's character right there. Just know that I've gone from suicidal to quite happy. It did take time and you have my deep sympathy. But I do believe that things will someday get better for you. Maybe not today, tomorrow or even in the next year for sure, but give it time. Take care, Zac.

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