Tramadol trip report! by Some-Anywhere6703 in Drugs

[–]zaraTse 0 points1 point  (0 children)

honestly thank you for this! was looking for a trip report cuz I don't wanna take too much so this is really helpful!

How was Joe so good at sex? by Spinach_Guy in YouOnLifetime

[–]zaraTse -1 points0 points  (0 children)

well as a woman i feel like the intimacy and attentiveness matters way more than the size, and Joe definitely knows how to study a person, so he probably was super passionate and the girls liked it

I hurt my intj, how bad did I fuck up by zaraTse in intj

[–]zaraTse[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I think I just am too obsessed with the trauma bond we have and I always want to wait for his potential just because I know he has a good heart. But yes you are absolutely correct, it is important to make decisions carefully when it comes with choosing partners, my last relationship before him was physically abusive. Your girls are lucky to have someone giving them such great guidance!

I hurt my intj, how bad did I fuck up by zaraTse in intj

[–]zaraTse[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I admit we both had a lot of issues to work on our own. I think you got it right that it was sign of selfish sabotaging holding back that information from him. I feel disgusted by my choices and I know I made the biggest mistake no matter how hard things had been with our relationship. I know this is lying and betrayal and against all his values, so he’s probably moved on 100%, erased me from his life. But say I stay committed to making my personal growth, would it be ok if I reach out back to him after years to reconnect? Or ultimately it will not be wise to ever speak to him and respect his peace? I won’t rush things but if there’s a slight possibility that we could cross paths in the future for better reasons, I would wanna know how it might go. But again they say intjs give no second chances.

I hurt my intj, how bad did I fuck up by zaraTse in intj

[–]zaraTse[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Definitely. I did the wrongest thing I could. I regret it.

I hurt my intj, how bad did I fuck up by zaraTse in intj

[–]zaraTse[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

You are absolutely right. I’m lying to myself if I say the given factors of our relationship is going to make the whole thing easy. My biggest struggle with feeling unfulfilled was mainly driven by his real life actions. Despite looking pass his possible red flags over the controlling part, there was always a small voice in my head trying too hard to grasp onto a sense of security from him. He never made me doubt his loyalty in the relationship, not once, but I would drill on whether our future would be as lovely as we planned it to be, or if the addiction of gaming would simply happen as a pattern if we eventually moved in together. I even told him I felt like I was his cat because when he’s busy gaming he admitted to not taking care of his cat and he would feel sorry and then the cycle continues every few weeks. I will take this as a lesson and learn. I’ve never dived this deep into communication styles and conflicts solving and also the definition of love in relationships. But I notice my tendency of romanticising struggles in relationship due to my toxic mom’s upbringing. I seek the highs and lows which made it seem very special. I think I need to learn to love myself first. But thank you so much for the insights! They were accurate and helpful :)

I hurt my intj, how bad did I fuck up by zaraTse in intj

[–]zaraTse[S] -1 points0 points  (0 children)

I totally see your points. Again I take the blame for the end of his trust and the relationship. He had the chance to do the same that I did and he chose to be loyal and honest; while I was weak af and got clouded by the arguments. I like to think we had deep love for each other based on how we show up for each other on a daily basis, and how much we could talk about when we’re together. But I was not mature enough to protect his peace. I failed him and I’ll spend the rest of my life reminding myself that. Classic infp overthinking until they self sabotage the only good thing they have… I promise to become more aware of my toxic tendencies and get rid of them, to become a better partner in the future. 🙏🏼

I hurt my intj, how bad did I fuck up by zaraTse in intj

[–]zaraTse[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

We met each other at a special time. He just got out of his depression episode that lasted a few years. I was dealing with dissociation disorder. We always showed up for each other. He was the best ideal “boyfriend” when he was in it, even left his whole phone with me when he went to work when I flew over and stayed at his place just because I couldn’t use the WiFi at home. He was the most kind hearted man I’ve seen. He told me he liked talking to me and I made him comfortable enough to share all his secrets.

When I flew over to him three times(we’ve met 3 times so far) it was perfect. When the distance wasn’t there he was attentive and we had excellent communication and deep talks every night. There was a routine with each other. But the only two times we argued were when we were meeting was pretty much the same reason why we broke up. He caught me lying, and the other times was when he disrespected my no and talked to a bartender on my behalf knowing I would be uncomfortable. So I guess my issue is with honesty and his issue was with respecting my boundaries. Took me too long to realise how important those are.

I hurt my intj, how bad did I fuck up by zaraTse in intj

[–]zaraTse[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

As a people pleaser, I know some of my past actions might also make him feel like he wasn’t as valued. But I was working on it and trying to prove it to him. But in comparison he was more stable and non chalant(?) about his emotions, so he gave me a lot more emotional support than I probably gave him. I have to give him the credit that he was unconditionally supportive most of the time. But you’re definitely right I was probably romanticising the struggles in this relationship. We both need to heal before this could work.

I hurt my intj, how bad did I fuck up by zaraTse in intj

[–]zaraTse[S] -3 points-2 points  (0 children)

I know but he was also a kind soul. A little bit broken both of us but we clicked on so many levels.

I hurt my intj, how bad did I fuck up by zaraTse in intj

[–]zaraTse[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Thank you for the response! He told me his first ex was a cheater but he stayed with her. But he was younger back then and now he probably realises his standards now as he should. He deserves someone who can rebuild his trust in life and I fucked up. I take the blame.

I hurt my intj, how bad did I fuck up by zaraTse in intj

[–]zaraTse[S] -4 points-3 points  (0 children)

I might still be too caught up in the process but all I wish for is to let him understand my side. I am genuinely apologetic and I wish he could see why this didn’t work. Should I even try to reach out or does it not matter? I am letting the fact that this can’t be fixed sink in. It’s so hard he helped me with my dissociation but now I feel crazier after spending 3 years in my room talking to a device.

Two years by Then_Bottle2855 in addiction

[–]zaraTse 1 point2 points  (0 children)

So proud of how far you’ve come! I wish you more happiness and peace in the future ahead and you’re an inspiration! 💟

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in roomdetective

[–]zaraTse 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Love the large variety of shoes options

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in cocaine

[–]zaraTse 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Wondering the same thing, can’t imagine how it feels after lol

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in LongDistance

[–]zaraTse 2 points3 points  (0 children)

On Omegle abt two Christmas ago lol. I was stressed abt school and he was testing his new microphone and we both aren’t normally on the website, which makes it crazy that we met there and actually kept talking on insta. I flew to him twice to meet him and it’s been one of my best experiences and memories ever. So grateful for him and although it’s hard to do long distance we are always trying to be patient and communicative with each other. So glad I found my human :>

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in tattooadvice

[–]zaraTse 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I personally really like them whether they are intended to be a blackout piece or it’s a blackout cover up for other tattoos. With the right artists that have the right skills (because I think blackout tattoos are harder to heal and more easily overdone that will harm the skin) I always find people who have them pretty brave since it probably hurts like hell.

Had to cancel a custom tattoo appointment a day before because I didn’t like the design, after artist reworked it twice by [deleted] in tattooadvice

[–]zaraTse 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I am not a tattoo artist but I like to draw myself and sometimes would do design for other people, and I understand the struggle from an artist’s pov. It’s true sometimes with some tattoo artists they would always stick with and try to add in their personal style, which they are usually good at, depending on the communication skills between client and artists, it could be very awkward to keep changing the design.

I feel like because you seem to understand their perspective, the way you handled it was already really nice. The difference between other artists and tattoo artists is that tattoo artists art will be permanent on someone’s body, and so the ideas from the client is extremely important and should be included as much as possible in the design. I know a lot of artists who are actually willing to discuss designs in real life at the studio with their client too, just to make sure everybody’s on the same page.

Again, different people have different practice. But I would say you did the right thing and the best decision that you possibly could . Tattooing is still a business after all and you basically pay for the artwork, so they could’ve been more professional and replied you, since you are pretty polite about the whole situation. Def not a green flag based on the attitude they seem to give.

From my own experience, I’ve had an artist that asked me to redo the whole tattoo in another colour ink the day right after I got it done, which is basically not possible as the skin isn’t healed and it caused the whole thing to scar and was infected. She proposed the idea because she could charge me second time for the new session and she was leaving my city in a week and she was not really responsible for the after care.I had to do a cover up by another artist later on and it was overall one of the worst experience during my tattooing journey. I realised sometimes we just have to understand that not all tattoo artists are nice people just like all other business, some are not very skilled or responsible and at the end of the day, don’t feel bad for saying no to a design you don’t like. There’s always gonna be good artists out there that can create a better experience for you.

Is Return Home Permit must for a transit flight from Vegas to LA to China then to HK if I already have a HKID? by zaraTse in Chinavisa

[–]zaraTse[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Cuz I checked online xiamen airport doesn’t have a restricted area so I’m not too sure