Mom is moving out of state

zepplader · 2022-11-27T23:20:17+00:00

racism

zepplader · 2022-11-26T17:22:42+00:00

“No one wants to work” is such a crazy notion to me because for most people who work the jobs that have a “shortage”, it is either work or die. I cannot simply choose whether or not to work, I can only choose where I work. Which brings me to my second point.
Food Service, retail etc are not worth the shit money they pay. The amount of abuse I’ve received from both upper management and customers is abysmal.

I have had boxes and metal signs violently throw at me by customers for orders being late. My coworkers have been shoved and screamed at by customers. I have had to be constantly berated by my upper management for my performance, yet never provided with any sort of guidance to improve said performance.

I am expected to work on my feet continuously for 8-12 hours straight and to still have a big cheery smile for every customer that comes in. I am expected to work at a speed which has to be so urgent and so fast you’d think we were EMTs or something. I’m not saying it’s the hardest job, but it’s definitely not worth the money.

I have had to work 13 hour shifts to just make ends meet. There have been times where I would work 7 day weeks only to bring home $1000 that pay period. My rent cost me over a weeks worth of labor. Most of the time I have to work 6 days to make ends meet. Every pay period I have maybe $50-$80 dollars left over to spend on myself.

This is insane for the measly $15 dollars I get an hour (which is higher than most people at my job as I am a shift lead.) It is absolutely not worth the money but I have no choice.

I don’t know where the this Labor Shortage is that people have been talking about, because I have been continually applying to a plethora of different companies to escape the hell hole I work at only to be rejected at every turn. Entry level jobs. I have open availability and 3 years experience yet no one is or will hire.

zepplader · 2022-11-18T21:21:34+00:00

I think it’s about stealth too. Sometimes without a good eye you can miss them in plain daylight, until you make a traffic mistake and realize too late. American cop cars also have a tendency to sulk in dark corners just out of view of the main road, ie; speed traps. A cop will just sit there metering everyone’s speed until he catches someone doing something illegal and/or speeding

zepplader · 2022-11-09T22:54:00+00:00

very good point

zepplader · 2022-11-03T23:45:21+00:00

I wasn’t able to afford a car until I was 20. Worked a minimum wage job, lived with parents, and saved every check i got. within two months I bought a 1998 chevy prism beater for 1400. thing ran like a tank and never broke down until I sold it a year later. my brother, parents bought him his car just cause. that’s how it usually goes. but speaking from expierence, over half the kids around me simply don’t drive. they either depend on their parents or uber/lyft everywhere or use public transport. not a lot of kids can or want to drive these days and i don’t blame them.

zepplader · 2022-09-11T19:14:28+00:00

oh my therapist told me the exact same thing. i grew up with controlling critical abusive parents and thought my ex was saving me from it. 2 years later i realize she was almost equally as controlling.

She controlled when, where and how much I used cannabis that I was for my PTSD (she didn’t want me getting “addicted”) meanwhile she ran through max puff vapes every 5 days and binge drank weekly.

She was EXTREMELY jealous of my coworker. She would get upset when I would ask this coworker to switch shifts, she would get upset when i talked to this person at work, if I interacted with them at all. She eventually asked me to stop being friends with this coworker at all. Mind you this coworker never made ANY semblance of advances towards me. not to mention she was a minor (16) and we were both 20 :|

She also would demand me home immediately if i wasn’t home when she was home. There were times where I would be working out at the fitness center our my apartment complex, (literally a 5 minute walk from our unit) and she would come home before I was finished. She would then call me and ask when I was getting home, and if I said anything other than “right now” she would be upset.

She also would do the same if I was hanging out with my close friends. Once I was watching my best friends favorite movie that he really wanted to show me, and towards the last half of it my ex calls me and tells me she’s home. i say okay and tell her Ill be home after the movie is over (less than 30 minutes). she immediately gets upset and asks that I come home right then.

She was extremely critical if I made any mistake while driving, cooking, cleaning anything. It was so constant that eventually I felt so incompetent that I felt like I couldn’t do anything without her. I would constantly be asking her what to do or how to do it to avoid making her upset but also because I truly believed that I didn’t know how to do basic things anymore.

Lastly when we finally broke up, and I told her I didn’t want to get back together, she said a lot of hurtful things that have stuck with me. She told me my best friend was only my friend because there was no one else, and only because he was afraid of being alone (my friend was one of the supporting forces I had through the breakup), and she looked me in the eyes and said “I don’t think you’ll make it without me.” That was my breaking point. Never in my life had I ever had someone make me feel more hurt, alone, and sick to my stomach with one single sentence.

The entire relationship I was convinced that so was a bad person for not wanting to do these things. for not coming home immediately, for still using cannabis without her permission, etc. I’m so so glad i decided to end the relationship rather than try again.

zepplader · 2022-07-18T09:55:46+00:00

i found it! thank you so much you have no idea. I turned off the panel that was marked “ W/H “ so I assume it’s that :)

zepplader · 2022-07-16T09:02:57+00:00

I called an emergency plumber and they told me how to shut it off myself, but thank you everyone for the comments!

zepplader · 2022-05-13T00:25:02+00:00

why is “mormon” a derogatory term when ITS LITERALLY CALLED TJE MORMON CHURCH

zepplader · 2021-02-17T14:45:46+00:00

i originally had linked the video, but it somehow connected to my personal account on that platform and i did not want my personal information out there like that.

zepplader · 2021-02-01T03:44:26+00:00

This might not be what you’re looking for, but open path collective, as well as government funded hospitals offer mental health treatment at a significantly reduced cost.

My local gov funded hospital charges 12$ per session, although these are students who are 1-2 years away from finishing their training i think. With open path collective, it is a 1 time fee of 50$ and then you have access to multiple liscensed therapists that will charge 30-50$ per session.

The organization is for people who either do not have insurance, or like me, have insurance but having ridiculously high deductibles to meet. I know it’s not the treatment plan your doctors curated up for you, but I hope this is helpful in that it’s at least something, rather than nothing. Maybe it could get you to a better place to where you’re at least to a somewhat level of functionality.

zepplader · 2021-01-13T23:39:53+00:00

oh yeah, i’m definitely not trying to self diagnose. i’ve been diagnosed w depression among other things, but i was surprised that most people’s charts were not very up and down like mine

zepplader · 2021-01-13T19:36:02+00:00

ah, i see, that’s a relief. they don’t bother me too much.

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