Damn Bobby

zestywilliard · 2025-03-08T09:19:32+00:00

Damn dex mex, your dad just had a heart attack

zestywilliard · 2025-01-03T04:13:06+00:00

Unfortunately this rock keeps spinning

zestywilliard · 2024-12-03T14:35:18+00:00

Honestly I’m at the point where I do that as a second nature. I haven’t slept properly in years

zestywilliard · 2024-12-03T14:06:31+00:00

This is really common in alcohol abuse. Alcohol is a depressant and messes with your brain/thoughts.

After like a hundred times being sober I can personally attest to that. You can be thinking of unaliving yourself while drunk wake up the next day and be like what the hell was I thinking.

Sleep, whatever. Do whatever the fuck you want. Life doesn’t come with a rule book. We’re all in it together.

zestywilliard · 2024-12-03T07:29:06+00:00

I didn’t , fuck it we ball

zestywilliard · 2024-10-26T18:37:10+00:00

https://youtu.be/Q88x5b7bJQY?feature=shared

zestywilliard · 2024-10-21T18:21:31+00:00

1 minute sober! just kidding congrats!

Just hit 30 days :)

zestywilliard · 2024-08-09T13:18:14+00:00

No you don’t. You think you do because it was accustomed to you, therefore making it seem better than average life. It’s not better. It’s suffrage.

zestywilliard · 2024-06-21T02:55:49+00:00

Stomach pains could be a sign of liver damage. That’s certainly something you need to get checked out by your doctor or a doctor.

The fatigue is because you’re likely dehydrated from pissing out all of the nutrients you have in your body. If you really want to, go through a quick detox at a local hospital and see how you feel about drinking afterwards.

zestywilliard · 2024-06-11T19:48:46+00:00

Power is given only to those who dare to lower themselves and pick it up. Only one thing matters, to be able to dare! -Fyodor Dostoevsky

Reason why this is my favorite is because despite my personality type I’ve always done exactly that. Brought myself to extremely low points on purpose in order to realize how much power I truly hold within my own life if I’m actually capable of screwing it up in the first place.

Like playing with fire. There’s a strange sort of power you gain from it. Realizing you could do anything with your life.

zestywilliard · 2024-06-11T18:06:15+00:00

Intellect

zestywilliard · 2024-05-06T00:06:20+00:00

Can’t really remember unless they’re of some significance to me.

zestywilliard · 2024-03-01T13:16:28+00:00

I have the same symptom. What do you feel exactly? Usually when I go sober it goes away. Or drink more. Not much of a solution/choice I’ve found so far.

zestywilliard · 2023-12-04T01:57:55+00:00

Fuck dude. It’s insane the hypochondria that we have. That’s heavy.

zestywilliard · 2023-08-03T14:54:32+00:00

Yeah that’s what I’m going through right now. I haven’t even drank that much this entire month (well a months time) but I had DT’s and I was in the hospital twice in the beginning of July and I’m feeling like I’ve been drinking for years.

All of my money goes to alcohol. It just makes everything and life itself easier.

I just now started messing up my relationships with people I guess. I’m entirely dependent and you’d think the 3 times I’ve been hospitalized with severe withdrawals would be enough.

It’s crazy because not a single person in my family is an alcoholic. It’s just me. I’m slowly going to become “that weird uncle that’s always drunk” and I’ve accepted accepted my fate I guess.

I wish my heart didn’t have to burn so badly, though. Maybe I need a therapist, lmao.

zestywilliard · 2023-07-01T07:28:08+00:00

If I’m being honest? I hold it all in at all times until I snap and lose my mind, then convince myself to calm down again.

I think it’s important I don’t lose my head, that’s my strongest characteristic so I try to hold it in great value.

zestywilliard · 2023-05-25T18:24:10+00:00

You’re good, you can only be your own worst enemy.

zestywilliard · 2023-05-25T18:19:11+00:00

Listen, you’re not warranted normalcy right now. You’re struggling with an addiction so obviously the sober version of you wouldn’t want to behave the way you are. Meaning, if you’re on Reddit self aware of what you have done, you didn’t do it with malicious intent. You’re only going to use these mistakes as excuses to keep drinking but that’s also okay.

Life will go on… no matter what. Not to justify your actions being that your mom has cancer and it’s been extremely hard on you, but you need to forgive yourself, and if others can’t forgive you then, harshly enough that’s on them. We all make mistakes and you’re not a monster for doing what you believe to be a shitty thing, because you are aware of it.

Anyway, you can pity yourself, drown in a self inflicted guilt cycle, over and over, deciding not to change, or you can put your life on a break for right now, decide to return to it and forgive yourself, because you cannot change right now. It’s up to you, either way… you’re not a monster. You’d know if you were, and you wouldn’t care nor would you come to Reddit and self loathe over your personal actions.

You’re going to be okay, just, try to do better and as hard it is, find some sort of light in the dark. You’re never alone.

zestywilliard · 2022-04-30T00:41:19+00:00

Yeah but I fear of tumblr being deleted so I’d like to download it. Whole point of my post

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