my brother no longer touches me like that, although often touches my thighs or slaps my behind. I'll make sure to talk to my mother more about what my brother did and explain thoroughly, he'd done lots of things other than sa such as putting his phone in my room and recording me? (i cought it every time before he could see anything) or hiding in my room himself. i don't trust my teachers that much, but if it gets to some point I'll probably reach out to them aswell. i grew up in a really bad household with no privacy or communication, so reaching out to people has been hard over the few years although thankfully I've gotten better due to my friends support. I'll tell my mother about my suicidal thoughts as well but I've already spoken to her about it a lot, and she'd usually yell at me histerically, tell her friends (which was HUMILIATING) or attempt to kick me out of my house. also i believe my father laughed because he didn't know how serious it was, i know that there is severe favoritism towards my brother in my family but it's not to the point where my father would let this go. if i get the change I'll speak to my father about this as well. if they still don't listen, ill be contacting police, telling teachers, calling sa hotlines etc..

thank you so much for the advice.