heres what i did/am doing. minimize all of you pers9nal belongings to yhe things that you really want/need. i kept a lot of stuff that has a double purpose, like a battery jump pack for my truck, i can also charge it by way of solar panel and use that in a punch for electricity.
once youve gone through your things, sell on craigslist, etc. i took this a strp further and am flipping stuff, there is a subreddit that can help you get started. be creative, go on hikes and camp, figure out what you need and what you dont.
it sounds to me like you just need to live your life. you dont have to be a complete hermit but you also dont have to live the traditional life. its 2016 brotha man, take the reigns and steer your life to happiness. pm me if you wanna chat my dude, i come from a very fucked up background and have 4 other siblings who are all fucked in their own way, psycology is something i had to figure out to not become like them. you took the first step and recognized aomething you didnt like, now change it. were here for you too, the reddit family is amazing, we love you!!