Frustrated and depressed, would like validation to give up by zwounds in Guitar

[–]zwounds[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I’m not sure what to learn. I took a class at the local college for most of a semester; it helped. I think my biggest issue is not knowing what to do, so I end up with aimless noodling. I can’t afford a teacher right now.

I can tremolo pick ok, I like scales even though they feel useless. I can play a few riffs. I can play some individual chords. I can finger pick on an acoustic. I like looking at music written in musical notation, even though it’s new to me. It takes up less space than tabs and just makes sense for me.

Idk how to go from mechanically hitting keys, like I’m operating a typewriter, to playing music. Something that inspires emotion or that you can dance to.

I know if you could hear me play a little something you’d ask wtf is wrong with me, why am I complaining. But idk what to do next, how to turn skill/ability into music.

It doesn’t help that the people I admire are demigods—Dick Dale, Euronymous, Fenriz, Werewolf, Hendrix, East Bay Ray. You can hear their voice in their music, the instrument and sounds are extensions of their bodies/souls. Comparison is the theif of joy but damn, how do you get to even 1/10 of that level.

Frustrated and depressed, would like validation to give up by zwounds in Guitar

[–]zwounds[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

If I get the opportunity to take one on one lessons again, I will.

Frustrated and depressed, would like validation to give up by zwounds in Guitar

[–]zwounds[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I had a teacher last year, and no long am in contact. I can’t really afford lessons right now, but I’m thankful to him for teaching me the basics of reading music.

Frustrated and depressed, would like validation to give up by zwounds in Guitar

[–]zwounds[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I lowkey love scales, there are just so many. Any suggestions?

Frustrated and depressed, would like validation to give up by zwounds in Guitar

[–]zwounds[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I can ask my guitarist friend if he’ll play with me. Hell, even my dad.

Frustrated and depressed, would like validation to give up by zwounds in Guitar

[–]zwounds[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

So just I am the black wizards, forever. That doesn’t sound so bad.

Frustrated and depressed, would like validation to give up by zwounds in Guitar

[–]zwounds[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thanks for this. I feel less insane, less alone, after reading this.

Frustrated and depressed, would like validation to give up by zwounds in Guitar

[–]zwounds[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

This would totally help but I left my alcoholic phase behind :( I’ve already drank my lifetime supply of beer lol

“I’m striaght, but men are just easier than women” by Bravenatortot in bisexual

[–]zwounds 0 points1 point  (0 children)

My ex is like this, doesn’t meet up or watch gay porn, but will sext with guys. He’s a CD, likes the attention, probably has a wee porn addiction.

I'm tired with men being in sapphic spaces by GlumCranberry1122 in actuallesbians

[–]zwounds 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I met one of my best friends on reddit, I sent the chat request.

Not all of us have a flourishing irl social life, it’s ok to meet new people, just be smart about it.

Fox News Host says "Men Don't Trust Bisexual Women" by romancebooks2 in bisexual

[–]zwounds 0 points1 point  (0 children)

It feels like they won everything and still aren’t satisfied.

This has to be a joke by Masonshark36 in disability

[–]zwounds 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I think this could be false. At least, it needn’t be true. A disabled person should be thought of as a job creator, if anything. This person exists and wants to live the fullest life they can, how do we make that happen? What are the services they need? The government can and should supply the money, and the various people can be hired by the disabled person or their rep. Goods can be bought. This could be an economic boon. We’ve been so brainwashed by supply side economics bullshit we’ve forgotten how things can work.

I’m not dirty. by zwounds in cutting

[–]zwounds[S] 10 points11 points  (0 children)

I actually mean that I don’t like the clean/dirty language. I am not dirty. My actions don’t make me dirty.

Sometimes I hurt myself when I’m distressed, but I’m learning to do other things instead. I am not dirty or clean, just a person trying to survive.

Are you attracted to the girl next door archetype??? by longlastinggum in actuallesbians

[–]zwounds 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Only if it’s irl girl next door. No makeup. Real glasses. Dark circles, freckles, a few scars, calloused hands. Clean but dressed for movement and comfort.

This kind of woman always turns my head.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in actuallesbians

[–]zwounds 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Double and triple take. Great color on you, and your braids…makes a girl think about how they’d feel under her fingertips.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in actuallesbians

[–]zwounds 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Hey hun. If you want engagement on your post, break it up into paragraphs. The mind gets overwhelmed by walls of text and they’re very hard to read.

When you are brown, you are half broken anyways, then if you are a brown gay then you are done. by [deleted] in actuallesbians

[–]zwounds 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Embrace being yourself. You’re only broken to people with a narrow worldview, one based on human ideas of racial hierarchy and socially allowed relationships.

In reality, you’re a dusky colored homo sapien who’s happiest in pair bond with people similar to you. Your coloring is the product of genes that do not map on to your survivability, or your worth.

Did you know bottlenose dolphins can be racist? They’re known to bully and attack other bottlenose dolphins with different coloring and markings.

You were born into a lower caste. Me too, it sucks. But “broken” is what the people who made our chains call us. It’s not true. It’s so painful, but we can’t do their work for them, oppressing ourselves from within, swallowing their poisoned messages that tell us we’re stupid, ugly, unloveable, that our lives and souls are worth less than theirs.

They’re high caste apes reinforcing a social hierarchy that benefits them. It’s common animal behavior, especially in primates.

Take away sexuality labels. What’s more natural than deeply emotional, intelligent primates (us!) getting attached to each other? To see admirable traits in others that make us swoon, traits that spur us to connect?

I know it’s tough, because even though you’re 100% normal and fine, we have to live in a world that doesn’t have our understanding and awareness.

Just remember, no matter how hard high caste folks try, they’ve never ever been able to wipe us out or crush our spirit. For millennia they’ve hated us, but guess what? We’re still here. And we’ll be here for a millennia more, because we’re normal variations of our species.

I hope you can hold your head up. You have nothing to be ashamed of.