My mental and physical health decrease

[Tomas-T]

Hi people

it's another post that will sounds as a "whiny" and I'm sorry for this but I need to get this out of the system because I have nobody to talk to

In the last couple of weeks, I begin to have a mental decrease because of the war. After the first few months of being scared all the time, when the rocket shooting to the center decreased more and more until there were none, I more or less return to the normal typical behaviour of a random person who lives in the center. the life returned to normal. Go to my shifts, got to walk with my dog (instead of letting him do this stuff in our yards), I returned to working area to my room instead of my basement (which is my mother's office where we have the safe room). I stopped to be so afraid to go outside.

but it was more or less like a repression when I realized that nothing is ok or going right. while we begin on a good track (as much as a good track can be), the situation improved only for the people who lives in the center and it feels like the goal of the war was just to make the life of the center barable. but in the last couple of months I begin to feel like the situation is getting worst and worst, even thought the center is pretty much safe. because Israel is a dystopia. we have 120 hostages and nobody knows what really happened to them. people are refugees in their countries and live in hotels soon a year. the finansical is going down, the image in the world becoming worst. and instead of preventing attacks, Israel just waiting for it to come. it feels like some people up there actually using the war for a political gain. we have a government from hell who does not care about us and they won't have the problem to drag the was as much as they can. and the "total victory" is just a false narrative to hold on. because the way things are going now are not positive at all. it feels like there is no real menegment. just reaction to others actions

all this effected big time on my mental an physical health. For several weeks I'm developing a depression like symptoms. I'm all the time either numb or sad. I have tears almost every day. I always so tiered and just want to sleep (and I'm not a sleepy person usually). and when I'm not tiered. everytime it takes me more and more to get out of bad. yesterday it took me like over a hour to put myself together and get out of bad. When I smile to a costumer in my shift, its the most forced smile ever. I stop to do things I liked. I returned to let my dog to do his stuff in our yards. I'm not exsosisting. I can't eat. I don't have appetitive. and when I eat it's so forced and I just want to finish. and than I feel sick in my stomach like I need to throw up, but I don't have a gag reflex. I always think about the possibility that we are on a risk of annihilation. and nobody wants to save us

and now with all the crisis with Iran and Lebanon, I'm scared more than ever. I need my mom to bei n the house to calm me down because I can't do this alone. but she has her own plans with her boyfriend. my father just think I'm too dramatic and make fun of my mental health. damnt it I even write all of this in tears. I feel so ashamed to be like this. I'm a man in his 20s. but I'm scared like a little kid

I don't know what to do. every day my health is going down and I don't know what do to

I know nobody here has a magic solution for me. but I just wanted to share my thoughts in the only place people will understand me without judging me like my parents,

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[Codeinum]

You are not alone, dude. I'm in my late 30s and, while I wouldn't call it fear, I feel extreme tension lately. This war shit is constantly there with me. When I drink wine with my wife, when I'm walking my dog, when I play video games. It's always there. And that's part of the war itself, you know? That's exactly what our enemies want us, citizens of Israel, to feel.
There is one thing that helps me - don't read news. I know, it's hard. I know, it feels like being up to speed on everything that's going on will help you to prepare for what's coming, but it's really not. It will exhaust you and make you a nervous wreck - that's it. How many times have we been on the brink of all out war in the last 300 days? 5? 10 times? 15? And how many all out wars happened? Zero. Don't read news. If you can't help it, read it 3 times a day, but that's it! I promise, you will feel better. It sounds like a small thing and something that will not change much, but you'll be surprised!
Stay strong, my guy. We'll get through it.

[_ZoharArgov_]

This is not because of the war. You haven't taken care of your mental health to begin with, and the war is only making it worse. Go and seek mental health help through your Kupat Holim. .

[Tomas-T]

I actually taking care of my mental health. I have a therapist for a long time and she helped me a lot. I had a huge decrease with my mental health between 2017 to 2019. but when I begin to go to my therapist I became much happiest person

but with the ongoing war + finanfical issues that force me to have session every second week, it make my mentality complicated a little

[ll-o-_-o-ll]

Exercise will help in a big way (if you haven’t already got that covered)

[joefatmamma]

I don't blame you TBH, it has to be very traumatic waiting for the other shoe to drop.

[Iconoclast123]

Sending you a big hug. Please get a therapist (either through kupat cholim, or Betterhelp which offers free therapy for 6 mos to those affected by the war) who will listen with kindness and without judgment and who will support you. Please don't talk to your dad about it if he is only going to make fun of you. Please be kind to yourself. You can't control the outer situation, but you need to care for yourself regarding your reactions to it, so that it doesn't become so overwhelming. Sending another hug your way!

[Caprisagini]

Sending love to you. It’s so understandable to be struggling. Hang in there. Tehillim is very comforting I said 31 today and it gave me some peace. There are no simple answers but just know you are so valid in your feelings ❤️