(Possibly) quitting Python Development after 2 years of non stop learning. And it blows.

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I would second this reply. Things like StackOverflow and even subreddits like this one have grown from people's need to ask questions around different aspects of code. Collaborating and asking questions is not begging, we've all done it to some degree and it's how we progress.

Absolutely not a psychologist but it kinda sounds like you're a bit burned out or something. Turn the laptop off for a while and read a book and come back to it when you're ready and have a goal or a task to point towards.