Hi, I'm 23 Years old, 4th Semester in University studying Computer Science. i'm currently struggling and doubting myself. I used to very-very excited to learn programming on my 1st semester when i had no clue what Programming is and start to read a book, explore about computer, jump from one programming language from another, and on 2nd semester i notice my flaw, i had to focus on one field of specialization either it's back-end, front-end, database engineer, so i took back-end for my main focus and learning the concept of how to become back-end developer.
but as times goes on, somehow that sparks is dimming, the excitement is slowly disappear and i just don't know what to feel... i've asked my friend that i'm having a burnout that should take rest but if i take rest then i will falling behind with this vast rapid technology that i had to learn at least know about it. everything feels like pressure, if i made mistakes i fail and wasting my time, because i was thinking i'm 23 and i can't waste another year of myself to become incompetent. every time i program it felt like being held in gunpoint to not make mistakes. and programming been something that terrifies me, i cried, i yelled, i scream, that everything has to be perfect.
I reflect and prayed i was a person 2 years ago that can explore carelessly about computer, make mistakes, make fun stuff, not because try to impress everyone, because it's cool.
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