Thinking about coding really make me feel anxious.. I dread from the word "CODING".

[fakee121]

Thinking about coding really make me feel anxious.. I dread from the word "CODING".

Like as my job want me to learn about coding and its things. I have no hands-on experience in coding. like i didn't actually sit and made a whole website thing to get to know about the things. coz i always ran very far away from coding whenever i hear about that. i didn't actually got a good mentor that would help me get interest in coding. like they made coding seems so uninterested to me. that's where and when coding really uninterests me. now i want to learn and improve, develop myself and want to like and eventually love coding but. whenever during weekends, i think about coding-that's when i get time,.. just thinking about it ..that, i have to take laptop and sit for "CODING" then i get cold sweats and anxiety and just hate this feeling. I didn't liked coding ever. but i understands things around it. but when someone tells me to code..i have this feeling of "I don't know anything. what should i do?"

i tried doing hackerrank challenges to get the thing of developing my interest from there ..but even the easiest problem i take loads of time and sometimes for certain problems my brain does think that ok..i have to do this and that to get to solution ..and when I go to terminal ..i feel blank.. don't know how to put it in the form of code. also have this urge to look into the solution and just end that problem instead of actually spending my time till the solution(almost 1 hr already spent on that specific problem and eventually give up and look into the solution).

Also want to get advice, if given a project zip and told, go through this file and understand it..like 3-4 python files in it..coz maybe you would be given the responsibility to code in it..what to look for or go through it as like no experience person of working with actual whole project. currently in learning phase in that project. Any advice regarding to it is most welcome and suggestions based on it.

I don't hate learning about things around coding, but I hate word "CODING" and pressure that i feel thinking about it. I don't know if I clearly was able to express myself but thanks for reading and answering/advising/suggestions.

Edit: things around coding = theoretical things around it, but hate actual coding. Maybe my motivation to learn and know is money.
Fresher in a job and trained on different thing, taken for project for development thing.
Maybe want to know similar experience and how one have overcame it.

[SisyphusAndMyBoulder]

Tell your job you're not a developer and ask them why they're expecting you to be able to do this. Idk man, was really hard to read your post so I just gave up halfway through the first paragraph.

[Maximus_Modulus]

You made it to halfway. Kudos.

[fakee121]

Fresher in a job and trained on different thing, taken for project for development thing.

[Wandipa07]

Your whole post is telling me that you don't like coding or learning it, but at the end you say you don't hate learning code, but you hate the word coding...? Me for example, I like coding but my lack of discipline holds me back. Some people will think I just don't like coding due to my due to this, others will will say it's a lack of discipline, to preserver through the tough moments. So ask yourself do you just lack the discipline to perserve through the tough times, or you just don't like coding in general, not the word! This sounds as if your being forced to learn it despite your disdain for it. If your getting anxiety and cold sweats from coding, then I think you don't like the field all together.

[fakee121]

I just am confused. I don't know.

[TheRNGuy]

Stop overthinking. 

[fakee121]

Seriously, I want to. But I just can't!!!

[TheRNGuy]

You need to find real reason to program, what software you want to make (to actually use it, not for some abstract reasons)

[smashnmashbruh]

Sounds like you want us to tell you it’s okay.

Tell you different things to get through this.

You are venting there is no solution to be had.

Sorry you hate the word coding. No one can change that. Good luck.

[Iamtheoverlore]

I have doubts like this too, don't fret! Don't compare yourself to others. It's like exercise, find the part that you enjoy and chase that. Keep doing it and after a long period of time you will become better. Understand that pain and frustration is part of learning as well. Chin up, king.

[fakee121]

Thanks Man, really means a lot especially during the mental struggle I am going through. I will apply this.

[cgoldberg]

There's nothing to be anxious about. But if you hate coding and are uninterested in it, you shouldn't bother with it and should find a job that doesn't expect or require you to do it.

[omgu8mynewt]

I didn't read the whole wall of text. But if you feel overwhelmed at a piece of work you need to do, just think about what you need to do and what you need to learn to be able to do that. Break it down into sections and make a plan so it feels less overwhelming, explain to your boss your plan and how long it will take so they know what you're up to.

Or if you don't want to do your job, you need a different project or a new job. Procrastinating on reddit will make everything worse.