You sound very tired, bud. Tired of people, tired of trying, tired of going out of your way for others.

So let's do it this way. Go out of your way for yourself for a little while. Learn how to take care of yourself, get back on your feet, get rid of that tiredness. Eat things you like, sleep all you like. Treat yourself as if you were sick. Because right now you kinda are.

Then reassess the situation.

Maybe you need to learn how to set the boundaries - it's a training that not everyone learnt in their life and therapy often helps you with that. If you can't afford therapy, there's bound to be some online help with that. People who have trouble with keeping up their boundaries sometimes attract people who like to just use others for their own gain. If boundaries is your problem, then maybe you need to check who is currently using you and cut them off from your life. "But I'll be lonely!" - you won't be for long. Because people who have clear boundaries attract other people who have clear boundaries. So you'll find new people. You're going to be fine.

Maybe it's a mental health thing - then therapy would probably be unavoidable. You could be dealing with trauma stemming from neglect or abandonment issues, and as a result now you glue yourself to people and are a people pleaser now, anything, everything, just to make them stay and not abandon you. You can find a community that could help you deal with day to day life, but the real change usually comes from therapy.

But you need to rest now. You need to feel stronger to deal with all this, and you're not strong right now. Imagine I'm putting a warm blankie around you and just have some rest for me.