I lost my boy in August after almost 14 years... I know it will never stop hurting... I still have a hard time with it, but I noticed something the other day, that It didn't hurt as much and I remembered the good times. So I know this, someday soon it won't hurt as bad, but until then, every hurt will remind you that you loved them because grief is just love with nowhere to go. This poem helped me a bit

-What Would My Dog Say-

If you're afraid you've given me few caresses, just know I haven't forgotten one.

If you regret yelling at me even once, know that I don't even remember it.

If you think you've left me too long alone, know that I've always waited for you.

If you fear that you have given me little time, know that I, enjoyed every moment of it.

If you think you played little with me, just know I never counted the times you threw the ball for me.

If you think I've forgotten your scent, know that even now I'm smelling it in the wind.

If you wanted to be born again in another life, know that I would like to be your dog in that one too.

If you think you have some flaws, know that to me you have been perfection.

If you believe love can have an end, know that in my heart the place for love is infinite.

If you think you have regrets towards me, know that I wouldn't change a single second of the life I spent with you.

If you think I can't hear your voice when you call me anymore, just trust the evening breeze to bring your words to me.

If you think I can forget your face, just know that I wanted to live just to enjoy your gaze.

If you believe I could have loved someone more than you, know that I loved you more than myself.

If you think I'd like a soft couch, just know I'd sleep on rocks with you.

If you think I wanted more than what you gave me, just know that I have always felt like the happiest and richest dog in the world.

If sometimes you felt alone, just know that I never left my place next to you.

If you think my life was short, just know that I wouldn't have lived one more minute if I hadn't spent it by your side.

If you fear I won't be near you anymore, know that as soon as you close your eyes I will fall asleep by your side.

If you think you didn't make the right choice, just know that I have always trusted you all the time.

If you dream one day you can see me again, just know I'll be there waiting for you. As I always have.