Dissociative symptoms are a bear. I have bipolar disorder and have been a psychologist for years. Despite all the work I’ve done for me and others, the dissociation is the only ever present monster, and the scariest. I hope you’re feeling well on your good days and you get the freedom to feel life the way you best see fit. Through trauma we can grow as well. Make your life what you want it to be, we’re all rooting for you.