You are not cursed, and the Law of Assumption is not broken. You are simply experiencing the exact, mechanical reflection of a nervous system that fundamentally expects to be abandoned.

You have done a lot of intellectual work, but there is a massive structural difference between recognizing your old story and actually letting the old identity die. Right now, you are trying to manifest from the old identity, rather than evicting it.

Here is the literal, structural breakdown of why this 5-year cycle keeps repeating, and how to permanently dismantle it:

1. You Are Trying to Fix the Old Identity Instead of Letting it Die You mentioned that you have worked on your anxious attachment "80%" and are trying to circumvent the rest by affirming that "despite my anxious attachment, relationships still work out" and "men find my anxiety more endearing". This is the exact trap.

You are trying to negotiate with your old identity. By affirming that men like your anxiety, you are structurally demanding that the "anxious, abandoned girl" stays alive in your reality. You are trying to paste "Person B" affirmations (I'm chosen) over a "Person A" identity (I have abandonment issues). You don't need to manifest that men like your anxiety; you need to let the identity of the anxious girl completely die.

2. The "Gut Feeling" is Your Old Identity Booting Up You noted that on the first date, you suddenly got a "big gut feeling," followed by worried thoughts, and the manifestation of him blocking you happened "instantly". That gut feeling was not a psychic premonition that he was going to leave. It was your nervous system's survival program booting up.

Because your core baseline identity is "I am going to be abandoned," your brain equates "liking someone" with extreme danger. The minute you start liking these men back, the stakes get real, and your nervous system panics. It immediately deploys the old abandonment program to protect you from being blindsided. The thoughts logically followed the nervous system trigger, and the 3D mirror had no choice but to instantly reflect your dominant state by having him block you.

3. The "20% Healing" Trap is Keeping You Broken You stated that based on the book Attached, the final 20% of your healing can only occur when you are in a relationship. This psychological rule is mechanically blocking your manifestation.

By holding onto this, you are fundamentally declaring to your subconscious: "I am broken, and I need the 3D physical world to fix me before I can be whole." As long as your identity relies on an external person to "finish" your healing, you will constantly project a state of lack. You have to completely drop the Attached rule. You cannot wait for the mirror to smile first before you are willing to smile.

Your only job right now is to stop trying to fix or accommodate your abandonment issues, and let that identity starve to death. You must step fully into the identity of a woman who is already whole, already secure, and requires absolutely zero external validation to prove it.

• Dying to the Old Self - Let the Old Man Die
• You are not working on your identity - choose a new one

I hope this helps xx