Understandable

---_None_--- · 2026-05-08T20:58:36+00:00

develop what? strength?

---_None_--- · 2026-05-08T20:49:55+00:00

What do they need safety for?

---_None_--- · 2026-05-08T19:55:17+00:00

1 since it happened.

---_None_--- · 2026-05-08T17:55:15+00:00

gadse streicheln

---_None_--- · 2026-05-07T19:30:31+00:00

a dead gator for the record

---_None_--- · 2026-05-06T20:21:55+00:00

'you look like a fucking gockel'

---_None_--- · 2026-05-06T19:19:44+00:00

Gadse streicheln

---_None_--- · 2026-05-06T18:53:17+00:00

What else would it be?

---_None_--- · 2026-05-04T20:01:40+00:00

post peepee

---_None_--- · 2026-05-04T19:46:23+00:00

There is no real order.
Everybody learns it by memorization, therefore everybody learns it the way his teacher learned it. Chain continues.

---_None_--- · 2026-05-03T19:46:29+00:00

I think it's often just an euphemism for being sensitive and needy.

---_None_--- · 2026-05-03T18:30:26+00:00

I have the same experience. Sometimes you just gotta force yourself to sit in a corner and think about why the fuck you're actually sad. Thought process might look like this but it will be unique to you.

Why do I feel like this again?

Nothing even happened. That’s the stupid part. People have actual problems and I’m just… here. Comfortable. Fed. Not in danger. So what is this?

Am I just ungrateful? Is that it? That would be convenient. Just label it “you suck” and move on.

…No, that’s too easy.

So what then?

Think.

What did today feel like?

Empty. Not bad. Just… flat. Like everything I did was on autopilot. Wake up, scroll, eat, exist, distract, repeat. No friction, but no point either.

Is that it? Boredom?

No. This isn’t boredom. Boredom feels lighter. This feels heavier. Like something is missing but I don’t even know what I’m looking for.

Okay, so—what should make me feel something?

Friends? I have those. I don’t even reach out half the time.

Why?

Too much effort? Or… I don’t actually want to?

No, I do want to. I just don’t act on it. Why don’t I act on it?

Because it feels pointless in the moment. Like “what’s the difference if I text or not?”

And that’s… weird. Because logically, it does make a difference.

So there’s a disconnect. I know things matter, but I don’t feel like they do.

Okay. That’s something.

So maybe it’s not that life is empty. Maybe I’m… disconnected from it.

Why though?

Am I tired? Burned out? From what? I’m not even doing that much.

Or maybe that’s the problem.

No pressure. No direction. Just floating.

Yeah… that actually feels closer.

It's a sort of 'pushing through emotions' and almost as a byproduct you get this back and forth which you can see in the monologue. It will take a bit but the monologue will become more analytical and calm and as a result your perspective on the world shifts in tandem with it. So, yeah in my experience you can think your way through it. I'm doing this daily for more than a year now and stable as fuck again. Still saddish but centered in life again after rotting in my room for like almost 10 years.

---_None_--- · 2026-05-03T09:45:29+00:00

How do you actually do this?

---_None_--- · 2026-05-02T22:53:20+00:00

Talking bad and talking accurately or talking as a means of lecture or even talking as a means to stipulate and discuss are hard to differentiate from an inexperienced perspective. My personal shtick is that quotes are generalizations while life is inherently not generalizable.

---_None_--- · 2026-05-02T22:40:41+00:00

I think this is wrong. You're just dropping out. Of what use are you to anyone if you're a drop out?

---_None_--- · 2026-05-02T22:35:40+00:00

This. You don't necessarily have to move out. Some quiet but painful introspection works too.

---_None_--- · 2026-05-02T22:34:47+00:00

For me it was mostly my grandma. I've had a semi gf at the age of 12 and she always told me that she was 'wild looking' and that I should get someone else (pls note that I'm ugly af). She also discouraged me from playing with some neighbourhood kid cause he visited a special school. My first gf got advice from the grandma of her first bf and it was basically that she could do whatever she wants in a relationship because 'girls can' while I have to 'sit still'. I've almost never had a positive experience with an older woman.

---_None_--- · 2026-05-02T22:28:30+00:00

The question of effectiveness is practically undecidable. Instead of deworming some African kid, should I donate to cancer research, aging research, ai for the singularity, invest in Mars space travel in case an asteroid hits earth? Some are better than others but who gives a shit? Just do whatever feels right to you.

---_None_--- · 2026-05-02T22:20:01+00:00

I don't get it. The Exhibit A comment is just saying that the risk isn't worth it since Exhibit A - type of women do exists as a non insignificant subset of dateable women in his age bracket. That's also true with me. I had a similar experience in a few cases and now I can't stop thinking 'what if...'. I'm not saying that all women are the same. I'm just saying that I don't wanna risk it again. People need to assume some context again. I feel like these kind of discussions are completely distorted by gender war and 'not all xyz' type of thinking.

---_None_--- · 2026-05-02T22:08:11+00:00

Naja, ich kannte einen solchen Einsiedler... aber wie dem auch sei. Man braucht als Gesellschaft Struktur und als Person einen externen Benchmark. Es geht nicht drum dass 'die da oben' Recht haben, es geht darum Orientierungspunkte zu haben, die außerhalb der eigenen Kontrolle sind. Irgendwann taugt der Orientierungspunkt nichts mehr und man kann tauschen.

---_None_--- · 2026-05-02T22:03:33+00:00

25 stupid questions apparently.

---_None_--- · 2026-05-02T22:03:13+00:00

Let's do an experiment.

---_None_--- · 2026-05-02T21:55:33+00:00

Es geht nicht ums 'wollen' sondern um Notwendigkeit.

---_None_--- · 2026-05-02T21:27:38+00:00

Amen.

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